looking forward to better days

For the first time since everything started, I feel better. My quick visit at Pink Sisters helped a lot. It was suddenly easier to let go of the things that I cannot control. I'm beginning to do it, little by little. Hopefully, the next days will be better. Hopefully, I will continue feeling better.

Oh, the magic of prayers. I am thankful.

Good Vibes.

Purple and Orange are the lucky colors for this year. Do I still need to explain why my page looks like this besides the fact that it looks really cute and childlike? :D Well, let's just say that I'm really hopeful for this year. I really am. Lord, please help me make this year the best that it can be for me.

New year. New page design. New goals. New life.
EVERYTHING NEW.

Epiphany, and et cetera.

I had an epiphany.. The moment was a rude awakening. I was sooo stupid to even believe that something good was gonna happen today. I was stupid to believe that he's gonna go out of his way for me. Who am I anyway. I'm just this stupid girl who, out of sheer stupidity, hoped for a stupid miracle. Not into me... not into me... not into me...

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It was a long and tiring day. Went to Ortigas for a consultation with our company dietitian and dermatologist. I was there from 11:15 to 4PM just sitting around, wandering, waiting, hoping to see a familiar face. Ate snack with Istipen then went to Trinoma. Met with Gracie and Istipen (again) at around 6PM at Starbucks. We can't think of anything to do so after eating at Goldilocks, we decided to watch Kick Ass. It was sorta morbid. Nevertheless, we liked it.

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BE SURE THAT YOU MATTER IN THE SPACE YOU OCCUPY.

Hearting today ♥

I don't wanna get too excited yet but I can't help it. I had my panel interview at Meralco and I think (and hope) that the result will be good. I mean, that I'll get in. It was a loooong day but I kind of feel like every thing was worth all my efforts. I really feel positive about it especially when one of the panelists mentioned "Anyway, we're going to hire you.." Waaaah! I really hope they would. It's too early to say but in the meantime, imma keep my fingers crossed.

Change topic. Had my hair cut today. About three inches was cut off but I still think that it's still kinda long. Ang init pa naman. So I'm planning to go have my hair cut again, maybe next week.

Anyway, before I went home, I dropped by at Gene's together with Tina and Cho. We were just four yet we had fun. I helped Cho write a cover letter for his resume... yeah, "helped" though I wrote the whole thing while he was busy texting his ex-girlfriend. That kinky guy, hahaha. We ate lotsa yummie empanadas and consumed two pitchers of juice. What can I say, we were "a bit" hungry. We're planning to have an overnight at Balia's tomorrow to celebrate something that I don't want to mention here yet. It's gonna be fun, I know. It always is.

I love this day. Everything went well eh and most importantly, today wasn't boring at all. Though there were moments of "little" sadness here and there, I managed to survive. Hahaha!! I wish tomorrow will be a nicer day or at least, be like today.

hopeful.

Nakaka-stress na nakaka-excite na nakakapagod (..at nakaka-nosebleed) mag-job hunting. Right after ng job fair lagi na akong naka-abang sa mga tawag ng companies. Oo, assuming ako na tatawagan nila ako. Haha. In fairness naman sa pagfifeeling ko, tumawag naman talaga sila.

Imagine, in a span of two weeks, bigla experienced na ako sa mga interviews at bugbog na ako sa exams. For example kanina, I went to Meralco for an interview and additional screenings "daw". Wala akong idea sa kung anu-ano ung additional screenings na tinutukoy nung nagtext sa akin. Pero pagpunta ko dun, ito ang nangyari:

I arrived at 8am kasi un ang schedule ko. Pinasagutan kami ng 2 essay questions then right after that, kinuha ung height and weight ko then derecho na sa interview na nag-last lang for 5 minutes ata o mga 7 minutes. Tapos binigyan ako ni Miss HR ng slip at ininstruct niya ako na pumunta sa may POEA, may testing center dun. Ipakita ko raw ung slip na binigay niya.

So, since malapit lang, nagtaxi ako. Wala pang 15 minutes nandun na ako. Jusme, sakto lang ung paghalungkat ko sa bag para hanapin ung coin purse ko kasi pagkahanap ko, nandun na ako sa parking lot ng building nung testing center. So nagstart ako magtake ng exam at 9:45 am. Yung una ko inansweran ay about verbal, numerical, and abstract reasoning. Tapos, may binigay sa akin na test about emotions and reactions. Tapos akala ko yun na at pwede na umuwi. But NO. Sabi nung proctor, be back at 1pm daw. Edi kumain muna ako sa Galle. I went back at exactly 1pm. At dun pagkaupo ko, binigyan ako ni Ginoong proctor ng lima ata o anim na booklet na sagutan ko raw. At eto pa, may blank sheet of paper para raw sa autobiography. Ang haggard. Sana pala di ako naglunch kasi ugali ko nang antukin after kumain lalo pa yun, siesta. Haha. At around 3:15 natapos din ako sa wakas.

Nakakapagod talaga pero sana, as in sana, makapasa ako sa Meralco. Maganda kasi ang benefits dun. Sana okay. Ilang beses ko na itong sinasabi sa mga entry ko pero uulitin ko, "wish me luck".

Sa Friday, meron nanaman ako interview. Sana naman sa dami ng interviews na pinuntahan ko, eh kahit dalawa dun eh ma-hire ako. Haha.

May puntahan sana ang pagod ko. :)

keepin' hopes up high =]

I woke up with a good mood today. Wish it will be that way till later. Though yesterday sucked big time, I guess there's nothing wrong with keeping my hopes up high, right? We'll be going out later for the station of the cross and I don't know what will happen next. I just hope we won't be attending the Seven Last Words again. Ang haba -haba nun eh. I remember last year we were inside the church almost the whole day and most part of it was spent on hearing the Seven Last Words. Nakaka-exhaust din lalo na't sobrang init and ang daming tao.

Had a dream about going to Baguio. UKay galore. Maybe that's why I had a good start for this day. Know what, maybe I really should do that. I really should go to Baguio. :) Pero after na lang ng graduation march. I heard pag graduating prone sa mga accidents eh. Better safe than sorry, I always say.

Everybody, may we all have a meaningful good friday :)