..on pain and rage

Right now, I could only think of one way to get even with those people who continue to hurt my family. I can't help but see injustice in all that is happening right now. For all the things they've said to my mom... the harsh things she heard from them.. though I was taught by my parents to always respect a person no matter what, I still can't help but to feel hate, anger, and rage towards them.

Seeing those tears from my mom's eyes, grrrrrrrrr.... every time... every f*cking time, I wish to take revenge. But my mom would just say, "Hayaan mo sila. Wala na tayong magagawa dun."

My mom choose to keep silent. All she will do is cry and then that's it. I don't know how she manages to ignore all these and how she can just let things go and not fight for her self. How I wish I can be like her. I wish I can be as peaceful as her.

Okay na lang. Maniwala na lang tayo sa karma. Si God na ang bahala.

imma chinese gurl with a twist *wink

Okay. After changing my blog's url from sweetswitch to mysushidiet and then followed by my post about the chinese new year, it occurred to me that I've a bit of racial disloyalty with respect to delicacies. Hehe. My ancestors are chinese, which makes my maternal grandfather 75% Chinese and my mom 50%, therefore, I've 25% Chinese blood circulating in my body right now.

I'm Chinese but I'm not crazy about noodles and shanghai. And i soooooo loathe the taste of mantao. Sure I love siopao, siomai and century egg but if I were to choose between siomai and sushi, I'd go for sushi without second-guessing. My blog's name holds all the evidence you need. Take note, with smiley pa yun ha.

Hmmmm... let's just put it this way, I'm a Chinese girl who is a sucker for Japanese Cuisine. Sushi rocks!!

kapalmuks.

Bad day.

Ewan ko ba kung bakit may mga taong ganun, ang kapal talaga. errrrrr. I've been trying to not let him get into my nerves pero I can't help it. Two-faced f*g.

If you'll do something for someone, even if it's out of will that you decided to do that, you should just wait for others to see and appreciate your gesture. Don't rant about it. You don't need to brag about it with the hopes of getting compliments. It just doesn't work that way. Instead na ma-appreciate, parang nakakainis. Epal.

*off topic:
Have not written here regularly for the past week/s and for a comeback post, this sucks. the topic sucks.

an encounter with an ex

Few minutes ago, an ex of mine, who also happens to be one of my kabarkadas, IM'd me in ym. He just said hi and we talked for like ten minutes and then said our goodnights-slash-goodmornings. To be honest, I was kinda shock that he IM'd me. Para kasi yung nakaka-loko, pasumpong-sumpong. Minsan bigla ang friendly and minsan naman parang umiiwas. And kanina, he was friendly. Hmmm.. Actually, I already knew that he's also online, I just didn't feel like talking to anyone kaya I ignored whoever was online on my ym list. And like I said, sala sa init-sala sa lamig kasi un kaya I really didn't take the initiative to start a conversation.

I just don't get it why he's like that. It just feels awkward coz I really feel na there really are times na iniiwasan niya ako. Haller. Ang tagal na since we broke up pero up to now may ganitong awkward moments parin lalo na pag magkasama kami sa lakad ng barkada. Nakadalawang gf na nga siya after me eh. Haller (again). He was the one who left me way, way back tapos siya pa yung parang nagiging aloof? Pambihira. It's getting kinda funny actually kasi ang weird diba? Pero I know na factor yung gf niya kasi selosa lalo na sa mga ex ni ex ko. Alam ko kasi ex's gf texted me dati and befriended me. Ex's gf was honest enough to tell me that she still feels jealous towards me. So I explained why she should not feel that way at all. At mukhang naging okay naman na after that kasi naging textmates pa kami ni ex's gf.

That's why I get weirded up by ex's actions and treatment to me. Weird for me kasi ako as in, super okay lang. No uneasiness at all when he's around kasi wala na sakin un. Not that I'm saying na may something pa rin siya kaya siya umiiwas and stuff... hindi ganun. What I'm trying to point out is ang tagal na nun kaya hindi na un issue pa dapat lalo na with our respective relationships kasi super tagal na nun, my gaaad. He's my friend and having a bitter past doesn't mean we can never go back to being really friends, at least for me.

Weird.

meron akong kwento.

Again, originally posted in my Multiply Account, dated June 4. But this is the more controversial version.

May magkaibigan, isang babae at isang lalaki pero di naman sila super close. Si lalaki ay na-link at naging related sa isang kabarkada nitong babae kaya sila naging parang magka-barkada na rin. Tapos nagkaron ng problema si guy at si friend nitong girl kaya nagkawatak-watak sila. Si lalaki kasi may nagawang mali tapos nagalit ung barkada except 'tong si girl. Kinausap pa nya si lalaki, at ang kanyang famous line: "Naiintindihan kita..ganyan din ung pinagdadaanan ko." Only to find out na, itong si girl pala ay shoulder to cry on din ng common friend nila. Wala naman sanang masama dun, kaya lang, kung anuano na pala ang sinasabi ni girl sa kanyang friend against dito kay guy. Hmmmmm..

And the rest is not that interesting anymore.
Ahahaha!!

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--INCONSISTENCY.