my effin' birthday

Let's get this straight to the point. Fine. My birthday sucked. I didn't even feel that this was my day. It's sad to say but I honestly think I've had better ordinary days than this one. I won't pretend that I'm okay because clearly, I'm not. This day was really, really depressing.

I didn't hear anything from those who I thought won't forget my birthday. Maybe partly it's also my fault because I expected. But don't I have a right or a basis, at least.. I mean, I've been friends with those people since elementary and they've always remembered. Worse, there were some of my close friends who texted me some quotes and asked about some other things. I was hoping that they'd remember but they didn't.

My birthday sucked big time.
There was no happy birthday for me this year.

ishmaburdei

Imma party coz it's my birthday. Yeah right.. It's my first birthday na holy week. ANd because it's holy week, my celebration is not until after the lenten season. Okay na rin.

I was wide awake until 12 midnight last night para shempre salubungin ang bisperas ng 22nd year ko sa mundong ibabaw. I was just a little sad coz for the first time, my parents slept early and wasn't able to greet me at exactly 12 midnight. Si utol lang ung gising. What made the situation worse was that even Erik was sleeping already. Hehe. What a way to start my birthday. It was quite depressing but I was okay na. Sayang ang araw kung magmumukmok lang ako dahil sa mga sad things na nangyari kagabi.

It's still quite early to say kung ano kahihinatnan ng birthday ko but I really hope that this day would be very special despite the lenten season. Hindi man makagimik or makalabas to celebrate, sana maging happy pa rin. I mean, marami sana ang makaalala. Wish me luck.

Imma post an update later, that's for sure. Korny documentation lang ng day ko. Hehe.

the votes were casted.

...and i am super satisfied with the result of our dance group's election. Now, I can leave the group with a calm spirit knowing that the group will be handled by the top most deserving members. Keep the flame burning guys. I'll miss you all big time.

moments of sadness here and there

Marsobente. Less than 24 hours to go, I'll be another year older. So yesterday, took time to reflect again (for the nth time) and try to see the kind of person I have been since my last birthday. I'm not gonna share the details of this one for two simple reasons. Number one, it's too personal and number two, I'm not proud of it because to give you a clue, it's kinda disappointing. Tomorrow's my birthday and I should be excited and happy. But I'm not and I really can't write about why. Doing it would be like a social suicide. Clue is that everything's kinda messed up in my life right now. Oh well, what's new. I just wish that I'd have a nice day tomorrow. It just comes once every year after all, sana ibalato na sakin 'to. One favor please... wish me a happy birthday.

..on travelling

I've been from bulacan to laguna back and forth every now and then and sad to say, for a couple of months now, that's the farthest I was able to get from home. I miss going on a trip, yung long drive... the ones where stopovers are required. I have this feeling that I've been a downer lately. Ang boring lang ng buhay ko ngayon eh. Everyday is just like yesterday. Nakaka-relate pa rin ako kay Veronika of Veronika Decides to Die. How pathetic can I get?

Anyway, I heard dad's going to Palawan on April. I really wish he'd let me come. Goodluck naman diba? Goodluck namang isama niya ako sa business trip niya. But who knows, he might want some company this time. Most of the time, my days can't even get plainer than ever. Total bore talaga. Like now, Hell's Kitchen lang ang pinagkakaabalahan ko. It sucks, I know right. Sana a more exciting day is waiting ahead for me.

I wanna go to an unfamiliar place and actually have fun.