"Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end."
After almost 12 good years, I have decided to close this blog to give way to a new one. The link will still be alive though but this will be the last entry that I'll be writing for "My Sushi Diet: The Submissions of a Sporadic Writer".
Why a new one? For fresh start, mainly. Looking back, entries in this blog were mostly about pain, frustration, disappointments, and sadness. I'd like to try writing about happy and random things this time - travel, food, events, anything about my life experiences.
I'm still conceptualizing about the new one though - the title, design, content line up, etc. There really is a lot more to blogging pala than just putting it up and writing. This is something I learned over the years as a PR practitioner and I want to try to apply this to my new blog.
Thank you for stopping by and taking time to read about my life. Thank you for letting me know that I'm not alone, that I'm not feeling things alone.
So, I guess this is it. I hope to see you on my new blog... SOON!
I never thought I'd do this but this is My Sushi Diet, signing off. xoxo.
Tuesday, October 8, 2019
Wednesday, January 9, 2019
Forgiveness for 2019
Day by day I am learning to forgive myself. 2018 was mostly about a chain of poor decisions and this year is the year that I will make up for it. 2019 is the year that I will earn the forgiveness I deserve... the only forgiveness that I need right now... The only forgiveness that matters.
I need to forgive myself for putting myself into that mess. It was one hell of a love triangle story. It was toxic. I was not wrong to try and see my chances but I was very wrong to subject myself to the pain of being treated poorly thinking that I deserved it as some form of punishment to make up for my mistakes. I thought it was the right thing to do. I thought it was the best way to prove myself to someone but I was wrong. I was wrong to think that I deserved it all because the truth is, I don't.
What I deserve is a love that doesn't need to be taught or to be told what to do and how to do things. I do not deserve a love that puts mine to the test and then puts the blame on me when I break and walkaway. I deserve a love that is not lazy... a love that puts effort without being told. I deserve a love with initiative... a love that will not make me question my worth or whether or not I am good enough. I deserve a love that is mature and ready. I deserve a love that is passionate. I deserve a love that will drown me in madness. I deserve a love that makes me want to stay.
I deserve forgiveness... forgiveness that will come from myself, not from anyone else.
Someday, I will be forgiven.
I need to forgive myself for putting myself into that mess. It was one hell of a love triangle story. It was toxic. I was not wrong to try and see my chances but I was very wrong to subject myself to the pain of being treated poorly thinking that I deserved it as some form of punishment to make up for my mistakes. I thought it was the right thing to do. I thought it was the best way to prove myself to someone but I was wrong. I was wrong to think that I deserved it all because the truth is, I don't.
What I deserve is a love that doesn't need to be taught or to be told what to do and how to do things. I do not deserve a love that puts mine to the test and then puts the blame on me when I break and walkaway. I deserve a love that is not lazy... a love that puts effort without being told. I deserve a love with initiative... a love that will not make me question my worth or whether or not I am good enough. I deserve a love that is mature and ready. I deserve a love that is passionate. I deserve a love that will drown me in madness. I deserve a love that makes me want to stay.
I deserve forgiveness... forgiveness that will come from myself, not from anyone else.
Someday, I will be forgiven.
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