I closed my eyes as I try to remember the awkwardness of our first meeting. I exhaled deeply as I recalled the first time your head tried to find a comfortable spot on my shoulder. I still had goosebumps while remembering how gently you whispered words on my ears while we were at the cab. The soft kisses, the way you held my hand, the hugs, the songs you sang while we were together, the late night conversations, the long phone calls. I remember it all. I still remember everything. Everything. I remember all the good things about us. About you and I.
As much as I wish to leave out the sad things, it's impossible. And I know I will remember it all, the way I remember all the good things about us. About you and I. I will always remember the unsure moments, the moments of confusion, the moments we tried to right what we both knew was wrong. I will remember how you chased me that one time. I will not forget the pain and dismay that was evident in your eyes. I will not forget the way I chased you like a helpless child running after a butterfly. I will not forget. I will never forget.
Now that we're back to being the strangers we once were, I wish I could tell you in person how thankful I am for everything. I wish to tell you that I'll be okay and that I'm trying to be happy for you... That though things between us didn't end well, I don't hate you. I can't hate you. There's no room for hate in my heart anymore. Sadness, disappointment, and pain already filled up the spaces.
So today, I am trying to smile while waving back one last time to all the good and bad things about us. About you and I. Goodbye.