Saturday, December 31, 2011
It wasn't a perfect year but it was in all sense, a great one. I felt, learned, needed, wanted, and realized a lot of things in 2011. And I am wisely picking what I am going to bring in to face 2012. I pray to be able to face the next year without any excess baggage. I played a great role in 2011 as the "traveller-wanna-be" and I am hopeful that after all the trips that I have taken, I have learned to pack well and to pack light.
2011 was a year of too many ups and too many downs for me. It was literally a roller-coaster ride of emotions. I felt so imperfect. I felt so down. I felt so happy. I felt so sad. I felt so embarrassed. I felt needed. I felt so insignificant. I felt so in love. I felt so afraid. I felt wanted. I felt unwanted. I felt pretty and sexy. I felt ugly and fat. I felt insecure. I felt pity. I felt rage. I felt doubt. I felt passion. I felt grief. I felt loss. I felt lost. I felt nothing. I felt apathy. I felt so many positive and negative things this year. And I thank God for letting me feel all these because I believe I have become a stronger and a more confident person. I have gotten all the validation I need and not getting the validation I want and not getting it from the person or people I want to get it from will not break me... at least, not anymore.
2011 was not just a year to me that came and will soon be gone because it was in its lifeless way, a great teacher. I learned how to cook Kaldereta. I learned that Vicks inhaler is the most effective drug for me. I learned that it is possible to be pimple-free. I learned that havaianas look and feel great when you wear them but it breaks easily. I learned that water, alone, can heal colds. I learned a lot of pickup lines. I learned that eating something sweet will actually give you extra energy. I learned how to do simple music editing. I learned to work on my own. I learned that I can be responsible. I learned that I can work solo to come up with something big. I learned that no matter how much you try to plan a perfect trip, at some point it will still fail. I learned new things that can hurt me because it has repeatedly hurt me a lot of times for the past year. I learned how to deal with myself, my feelings, with others, and others' feelings. I learned to take care of myself. I learned to be tougher to face things on my own because in the end, all you really have is yourself. I learned that the only person you can trust to not let you down is yourself. I learned that not all dogs bark first when you piss them off, most of them bite right away. I learned that not being on the same page creates a lot of misunderstanding. I learned that sleep can break my heart. I learned that I should stop begging for what I want because it just hurts more if you still don't get it after you have begged. I learned to have a pride and to keep it as much as possible, low. I learned that love and commitment should really go hand in hand in a relationship. I learned that there is still hope in being hopeless. I learned that friends do come and go. I learned that friends who decided to go, sometimes decides to come back. I learned that life can be really short. I learned that this can be the last day of my life. I learned the difference between needs and wants. I learned a lot about true love. I learned about patience and understanding. I learned about heartbreaks and how to face them. I learned that simple things can make someone really happy. I learned that you cannot teach someone to want or to need you the way you want them to. I learned the true value of money and that it is the cheapest thing in the universe but is also the most powerful one since it can make the world go round. I learned that I can be who I want to be. I learned that I can do good alone but I do better when I work with someone. I learned that two cups of coffee a day can cause me palpitation. I learned that no matter how insignificant or how simple or how complicated these lessons are, I am just so thankful that I LEARNED.
As I evaluate the year 2011, I realized I still have so many needs and wants. Some of these were already satisfied but I still need to work on most of them. As much as I'd like to write it all down to the littlest detail, it's too personal. However, to share a few, I know I still need to work on my cooking. I want to further strengthen my relationship with God. I need to learn how to strictly follow my budget. I want to lose weight. I need to lose weight to ensure good health. I want to be totally financially independent. I need to work harder for the things that I want to achieve. And the list goes on. I am just thankful that I already know what I need to get what I want and to make sure that I have everything that I need. I only need prayers and hardwork. Right? Right!
2011 is about to end in a few hours and I am really excited for the coming year. We are all clueless of what it has to offer but what excites me more about it is that it is another chance for change. Another chance to make things right. Another chance to make things happen. Another chance to chase my dreams. Another chance to love better. Another chance to work harder. Another chance to live life.
2011, you were a great year for me but you have to go and make way for 2012.
2012, I am hopeful that you'd be better than 2011 and that we'd be good to each other.
CHEERS TO THE NEW YEAR!! CHEERS TO THE GOOD LIFE!!
Sunday, December 11, 2011
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
I need someone to talk to or so I thought. But I realized it'd be pointless. It'd just be a waste of time for the people who knows what I'm going through right now because they'll just be hearing and saying the same thing. And it's tiresome too, you know. Hearing the same thing from different people. I'm tired of being told of my stupidity or martyrdom or whatever this can be called. So I preferred to stare on this lifeless monitor that won't even console me. Blogging has always been one of my refuge at times like this. I just hope it hasn't lost its magic yet. We'll see.
Friday, November 11, 2011
Monday, November 7, 2011
'Twas my second time to visit the place. The first was in June 2010 with my friends from Meralco. However, I was still blown away by the beauty of Ilocos - the vintage establishments, the history, and the beach.
|From L to R: Maricar.Princess.Camille.Dim.Jojo.Gene.Jhul.Kit.ME.Mikes.Rona.|
The whole trip was crazy and full of excitement and laughter. There was never a dull moment while we were awake. It was like running back and forth memory lane. We talked about a lot of stuff; most are crazy and some are serious. Oh my, it was really fascinating to see how each of us have grown and matured but is still the same person that we were back in highschool. One got engaged already; most are still single; one is heartbroken; the other came out of his closet and is more gay than I can imagine. All of us have a job but still figuring out if we really are on the right track.
It was fun to look back on the old days. The place was perfect for our trip because it was like going back in time when we were just highschool kids who dreamt of having the perfect job and making good money.
P.S. I highly recommend EXPLORE NORTH. They offer affordable and well-organized tour packages. Check them out.
Friday, October 21, 2011
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Monday, October 10, 2011
Okay. I miss dancing. I still want to dance. I want to come back. But the more that I want it... the harder it is to reach. The feeling is like entering a place you know by heart only to find out that nothing there is familiar anymore. I guess I've been gone for so long. I don't know where and how to pick up. I always believed that if I really want it, I'll find a way to go back. But then, I realized that it's not always the case. Wanting something so bad doesn't mean you'll get it. Not possible especially if you're not willing to make a sacrifice. You cannot serve two masters at the same time.
I tried to find a tangent between dancing and my professional career but it is just so hard. I don't think I can meet the level of commitment that dancing is going to require from me if I ever decide to go back. And it's not like I can sacrifice my career for dancing. Reality check. I am not as good as others. There's no bright future waiting for me in dance. And I need something stable. I need a fallback.
For now, I will just keep my faith that my decisions will bring me to the right path. I am not losing hope because my love for dance will never end. No matter what happens, it will always be what it has always been to me - my first love.
Sunday, October 9, 2011
I really need to save up money in prep for my upcoming trips this last quarter of the year. So in accordance to this "so-effin-hard-to-achieve" goal (ehem ehem), I try to stay home as much as possible, like today. And here's what I realized: It's easier to stay at home and avoid getting bored (Thank you, Instagram) than to go out and avoid spending. I know, it's like stating the obvious and not that it's big of a deal, maybe I'm just trying to calm myself here. Hehe.
Too much of avoiding boredom, I am watching a movie, blogging, instagramming, and eating chips simultaneously. And I'm doing all these without sweat. I know, it's really not something I should be proud of. Someone out there or maybe you could do all these better or prolly can do even more. Duh. Anyway, back to what I was saying.
The Movie: The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants 2.
I watched the first one and liked it so when I knew about its 2nd movie (Thanks to Astroplus), I bought a copy. And I was right. I am enjoying the movie so far. Reminds me pretty much of Now and Then, a movie from 1990-something. It was also about a story of four friends who grew up together and blah blah blah. Blake Lively is so pretty. Her looks never changed even after she got in to Gossip Girl. But Amber Tamblyn is my favorite. Not that I can relate to her because I don't think we're the same. I just really lover her character in the movie and her beauty.
|Reminds me of my lovies, Rosa-Leri-Joy!|
Anyway, here is my first Instagrammed photo. And I'm still Instagramming right now. I want an Iphone!! Oh no!!
|Test shot feat. my Champ|
Saturday, October 8, 2011
I ordered 2-pc Drumsticks marinated with Soy-garlic while boyfriend had Porkchop. The food tasted great. The Porkchop was yummier though. My friends were right, Bonchon Chicken is indeed delicious. A bit pricey (145 PhP) for the size of the chicken though but for the taste, it’s A-okay!
Service at Bonchon was tad bit disappointing. Lucky them their food compensated for the bad service. We ate there at around 2:30pm and paid them 500 bucks. Our total bill amounted to 305 PhP but I had to wait a few more minutes (15-20) to get my change. It’s not like the place had few customers; it was actually jam-packed so why the heck would they have trouble in giving out changes, right? Right! Plus, their cashiers really seemed inexperienced.
While we were at the counter, one of the service crew (SC) took the initiative of finding a table for us. It was really, really nice of him to do that. However, when we got to the table, it was still dirty. There were water spillage, drops of sauce, and other what not on the table. We had to ask another SC to clean our table. Not only that, while we were eating, the table beside us got vacant so expectedly, an SC cleaned the table and he accidentally spilled the glass of water on our side of the table. Lucky him, Antonio didn’t get wet at all. Whew!
So to sum this up,
Bonchon Chicken= great food=bad service
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Rest in Peace, brother.
Saturday, August 27, 2011
So yeah, I guess I'm back to writing (for) now.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
It's my mom and dad's 26th anniversary today. We celebrated, all four of us. They picked me up at the office after my duty (4pm) then we went to this small spa near SM Marilao, Solace Spa. We had a relaxing massage. After the massage, we went to Pixie's and bought dinner. Then to another stall of a very infamous yummy crispy pata. Then at Ministop and bought Icecream and a cake. Then went home and had a simple dinner with baby brother and his yaya. I super love this day. We are so happy celebrating their love.
Twenty-six Years of togetherness. Cheers to the good life!
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Friday, April 22, 2011
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Monday, April 11, 2011
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Friday, April 8, 2011
Thursday, March 31, 2011
I planned to end March by summing up the craziness of this month in a single entry that's why I haven't been writing the past weeks. The original plan was to tell the story of this month down to its littlest details but as usual, laziness got the best of me. If I have time and if I am in the mood, prolly, I'll rewrite this entry with details and substance to it. But for now, I'll just go to bed. Goodnight!
Monday, February 7, 2011
Okay, I am surprised by two things. One, that Ashton can write this good. Two, what he wrote actually made sense. Well, I am an instant fan.
I was shooting a scene in my new film, No Strings Attached, in which I say to Natalie Portman,
“If you miss me, you can’t text, you can’t email, you can’t post it on my Facebook wall. If you really miss me, you come and see me.”
I began to think of all of the billions of intimate exchanges sent daily via fingers and screens, bouncing between satellites and servers. With all this texting, emailing, and social networking, I started wondering, are we all becoming so in touch with one another that we are in danger of losing touch?
It used to be that boy met girl and they exchanged phone numbers. Anticipation built. They imagined the entire relationship before a call ever happened. The phone rang. Hearts pounded. “Hello?” Followed by a conversation that lasted two hours but felt like two minutes and would be examined with friends for two weeks. If all went well, a date was arranged. That was then.
Now we exchange numbers but text instead of calling because it mitigates the risks of early failure and eliminates those deafening moments of silence. Now anticipation builds. Bdoop. “It was NICE meeting u.” Both sides overanalyze every word. We talk to a friend, an impromptu Cyrano: “He wrote nice in all caps. What does that mean? What do I write back?” Then we write a response and delete it 10 times before sending a message that will appear 2 care, but not 2 much. If all goes well, a date will be arranged.
Whether you like it or not, the digital age has produced a new format for modern romance, and natural selection may be favoring the quick-thumbed quip peddler over the confident, ice-breaking alpha male. Or maybe we are hiding behind the cloak of digital text and spell-check to present superior versions of ourselves while using these less intimate forms of communication to accelerate the courting process. So what’s it really good for?
There is some argument about who actually invented text messaging, but I think it’s safe to say it was a man. Multiple studies have shown that the average man uses about half as many words per day as women, thus text messaging. It eliminates hellos and goodbyes and cuts right to the chase. Now, if that’s not male behavior, I don’t know what is. It’s also great for passing notes. there is something fun about sharing secrets with your date while in the company of others. Think of texting as a modern whisper in your lover’s ear.
Sending sweet nothings on Twitter or Facebook is also fun. In some ways, it’s no different than sending flowers to the office: You are declaring your love for everyone to see. Who doesn’t like to be publicly adored. Just remember that what you post is out there and there’s some stuff you can’t un-see.
But the reality is that we communicate with every part of our being, and there are times when we must use it all. When someone needs us, he or she needs all of us. There’s no text that can replace a loving touch when someone we love is hurting.
We haven’t lost romance in the digital age, but we may be neglecting it. In doing so, antiquated art forms are taking on new importance. The power of a hand-written letter is greater than ever. It’s personal and deliberate means more than an email or text ever will. It has a unique scent. It requires deciphering. But, most important, it’s flawed. There are errors in handwriting, punctuation, grammar, and spelling that show our vulnerability. And vulnerability is the essence of romance. It’s the art of being uncalculated, the willingness to look foolish, the courage to say, “This is me, and I’m interested in you enough to show you my flaws with the hope that you may embrace me for all that I am but, more importantly, all that I am not.”
- Ashton Kutcher
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
I was kinda upset that I didn't see him today, lalo na at may special occasion. But family should always come first, of course. So naiintindihan ko naman. May sort of panghihinayang lang, you know.
I was swamped with work in the office today. Tambak yung due ko for feedback letters, homaygad talaga. I even had to work during my lunch break just to make sure I'll finsih everything before five o'clock dahil hindi na kami allowed na mag-overtime, which sucks a lot! pffft.
Oh life! Kelan kaya ako matututo? Stubborn me. Parang may dyslexia lang ako when it comes to life. Hate it!
Friday, January 14, 2011
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Sunday, January 9, 2011
So how's my year so far... Lemme see.
- Mitch finally met my folks. He's too shy, though.
- I was booked for Palawan. The trip is on March.
- Planned a perfect Valentine getaway with three other couples :)
- General meeting with Musiqality. MAI as the new leader. Go Kekemonski!
- Stephen's birthday celebration.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
- Mitch and I met at Trinoma.
- We drove off to Il Terrazo at Tomas Morato.
- We ate (A LOT) at Carlo's Pizza.
- We had a funny "Gamit mo, linis mo... Pagkain mo, luto mo." coversation.
- Drove off to my lola's sister's wake at La Funeraria Paz, La Loma.
- He met almost everyone.
P.S. 2011, so far, you're so good! ♥
Lord, thank you for this day! :)
Monday, January 3, 2011
New year. New page design. New goals. New life.
I want to study again. I want to learn how to drive and buy my own car. I want to go out-of-town. I want to lose weight. I want to dance again. I want to visit my brother in Canada. I want to believe these things will happen for me.