I'll give you my heart forever and ever.
No arms can ever hold you more than I do.
No man can ever love you babe it's true.
You came to me from heaven, yes it's true."
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.... Oh My Gosh!
June is so far, okay. Nothing unusual or worth-writing has happened yet. Whether it's a good thing or a bad thing, I don't really care. Though lately, I've spent most of my free time thinking about my life, about what I want, and what I need. I initially planned on making a list of everything I want and need to serve as my easy guide on the things I have to work for. Then I got lazy. HAHA. How I hope it's that easy. Making a list of what you want and need with the goal of crossing out as many as you can. It can be that easy but I know myself too well. I am not good with lists anymore. Chances are, I might even misplace or lose it even before I can cross out something from it.
It's amazing how everyday seemed like a chance of discovering something new about me. Funny how every time I daydream or indulge myself to self-evaluation, I find that I am still not the person I want to be or I think I could be. At least, I'm not becoming the person I hate either. Now, how's that for a good thing? Well, I've been through so much lately and I'm letting myself recover and move at my own pace. I really think that's by far the best thing I've let myself do. And when I finally get back to my old ways, it will all feel like brand new because I've changed. Yes, I did. And everything, good or bad, that I've learned and felt and saw and smelled and touched and thought and did, I owe it all to life. I am alive and I feel alive.
My life isn't perfect, not even close but I love it this way. It is better this way because I am learning (A LOT). This is probably what I need. This is probably what I want.