how to fxn?

I still have few more hours to go before I go back to work but I am already constantly bombarded with questions inside my head on whether or not I can function normally later. The truth is, I have no choice. I have to work. I have to get things done in spite of my emotional state. I am expected to do what I will be told to do. I have no choice.

So tonight, I am praying for focus and clarity of mind. So help me God.

looking forward to better days

For the first time since everything started, I feel better. My quick visit at Pink Sisters helped a lot. It was suddenly easier to let go of the things that I cannot control. I'm beginning to do it, little by little. Hopefully, the next days will be better. Hopefully, I will continue feeling better.

Oh, the magic of prayers. I am thankful.

just about everything that matters #atm

The past days have been extremely hard for a lot of reasons and right now, I just want this all to end. I can't wait to see the light at the end of the tunnel even if it ends up blinding me. I just can't wait to finally know which direction to take after everything. Right now, all I hold on to are prayers and the emotional support I get from the few friends who I entrusted my side of the story with. Somehow, these have been enough to keep me going and to keep me sane.

Despite of it all, I am thankful for the true and new friends that I have right now. On top of everything, I am thankful that God seems to be hearing me out for real.

Expect the worst. Hope for the best.
Right.

- 30 -

PLEASE

Previous post was a jinx

It's only been three days but I can't take it anymore. I wake up everyday and slowly die in pain.  How many more days will there be? I don't think I'm strong enough for this.

I. NEED. HELP.

Steady

If you know me well enough, then you can tell by the fact that my last entry here was more or less four months ago means that I'm pretty much on a good emotional state these past few months. Yay for small wins!

Anyway, I mentioned to a friend that I only blog when I'm going through something because this proves to be one of if not the most effective outlets there is, at least for me. He told me I should also write when I'm happy and it kinda made me rethink how I utilize this blog. Not that there's anything wrong with the way I'm using this... It's not like there's an un/written rule on the things that you should and should not write about online. It's just that, a little change won't hurt at all and sometimes, a little change is all we need to keep us from boredom and monotony.

So, in the next few entries, I'll try to talk about how my life is going. Just the general less-drama and less-annoying parts of it. I may also begin putting some photos here too.

Wish me luck, please?