Message Sent.

I thought it was just a coincidence but since it happened again,
I think I get it. But why? I don't understand.
What did I do? Is everything okay? Are you mad?
Hmmm..

Bothered*

Friend [?]

WARNING: Forgive me. Don't expect anything rational from this entry.

I don't know how to begin writing about how disappointed and upset I am right now. I don't have a problem with change, really. I don't even find it that hard to adapt to change... except now. See, I KNOW this someone who "used to be" so dear to me. We "used to be" so close. We were such good pals until something happened a year ago. Since then everything changed. Everything was so sudden and I had trouble accepting the fact that everything's different already. The warmth of the friendship turned into coldness. The closeness transformed into a gap; a gap we or should I say, "I" wasn't able to bridge... alone.

I already lost you, one year ago.

I tried to save what's left with the friendship. I thought I can do it alone. I thought my efforts will be enough and so I gave it my best shot. It still didn't work out. Now, I'm finally able to admit to myself that there really was nothing to save because it cannot be saved anymore. Everything just turned too ugly. I don't even know why it took me this long to finally accept this.

This is just so tiring. If you cannot value me the way you did before, or if you can't even act as a friend, then what's the point in trying? I am so tired of reaching out to you. I am just so tired. And so, with this entry, I am saying goodbye to you, to the friendship we had, and to everything about you and me. You are now part of the past. Yes... past. And I'm never looking back.

I rest my case.
GOODNIGHT.

Another strategic plan =]

I'm trying something new. Since my schedule's really full and I really feel that I have so little time left for my personal stuff, I decided to list down everything I want to do and to accomplish. It all include work-related, dance-related, and me-time activities. Laugh all you want if you find this ridiculous but I made a schedule of every activity in my list. I'm just hoping that with that schedule that looked more like a gantt chart to me, I will be able to balance everything and have a quality me-time. Hehe.

Another strategic plan and I hope this time, it will work. :D

I met Lady President

I met Lady President the day I started caring about stockings. Yes, I finally got my uniforms. After six months from when La Marina got our measurements! Ang tagal men. Good thing the uniforms fitted me well.




The long wait was finally over. And good thing my mom has lots of stockings. Bad thing, I didn't like the color that much so I had to buy new ones. Then, I met Lady President. :D

Lousy comeback and I don't even care ;)

Though I know it's lousy to start filling this space up again by posting some non-sensical survey, I'm still going to do it. I just have to chillax a little before finally writing about how crazy the past weeks were for me. And if by any chance you feel bored too, don't be shy to repost this in your site. Grab away, folks.

By the way, I got this from Abby in Facebook.

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ABC About You Questions:


A - AVAILABLE: Yes. But if you need money, I'm not. :P

B - BIRTHDAY: Marsobente

C - CRUSH : is so elementary

D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Water

E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: My mom

F - FAVORITE SONG: Songs by Lil Eddie

G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Not a fan of anything Gummy, saaaaarrrreeeeee ;)

H - HOMETOWN: Bulacan

I - IN LOVE WITH: Life and lalalalove ♥ and of course, him.

J - JUGGLE: I wanted to learn this when I was a child then I got frustrated and I can't remember what happened next. =P

K - KILLED SOMEONE: In my mind, Hell Yeaaaaah! :P

L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: Our trip to Baguio. It was via a bus, though.

M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Any

N - NUMBER OF SIBLING/S: Only one

O - ONE WISH: That all my wishes will eventually come true :P Lol.

P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: ♥

R- REASON TO SMILE: Musiqality, Life, and love ♥

S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade

T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 7am

U - UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN: Just plain red

V - VEGETABLE(S): Not a fan :P

W - WORST HABIT: Stalking and eavesdropping, Bwahahaha!!

X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: Chest

Y - YOYOS ARE: not for me though I like them. Boohoo!

Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Pisces


Random Questions About You:

Spell your name without vowels: RNZNN FRTLZ

What color do you wear most?: Purple

Least favorite color? Pink

What are you listening to? Air Supply by Lil Eddie

Are you happy with your life right now? YES

What is your favorite class in school? Algebra and Interpersonal Comm, woooh!

When do you start back at school/college? Done with that but sill wants to go back someday for masterals

Are you outgoing? Yes

Favorite pair of shoes? Any power shoes (astig shoes for dancing)

Where do you wish you were right now? Beside him


THE CANS:

Can you dance? Yes

Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth? Haven' tried that

Can you whistle? A little

Write with both hands? I can but the other's quite unreadable. Haha!

Walk with your toes curled? I tried it just now and the answer's Yes.


THE DO'S:

Do you believe there is life on other planets? Not sure

Do you believe in miracles? YES!

Do you believe in magic? NO but Kuya Rocky's are very tempting

Love at first sight? NO

Do you believe in Satan? I believe that he exists

Do you believe in Santa? Not anymore

Do you know how to swim? Yes

Do you like roller coasters? Yeyeyeyeeeeesss!

Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows? Just don't make me eat roaches!


THE HAVES:

Have you ever been on a plane? Yes

Have you ever asked someone out? Yes

Have you ever been asked out by someone? Yes

Have you ever been to the ocean? Yes

Have you ever painted your nails? Yes


THE WHATS:

What is the temperature outside? Im not sure

What was the last restaurant/fastfood you ate at? Gerry's

What was the last thing you bought? Stockings

What was the last thing on TV you watched? News


THE WHOS:

Who was the last person you IM'd? Z

Who was the last person you took a picture of? Lloyd

Who was the last person you said I love you? Abby Luz


HAPPY SECTION:

Are you a happy person? Usually

What can make you happy? Love, Dance, and ...

Do you wish you were happier? Yes

Can music make you happy? Definitely!


LOOK AT ME:

What is your current hair color? Black with a touch of brown

Current piercings? The usual

Have any tattoos? No

Eye color? Brown


IN A BOY:

Favorite eye color: Brown

Short or long hair: As long as he looks neat, I'm fine with it

Height: Basta taller than me

Best clothing: Boy next door type


HAVE YOU EVER:

Been to jail: Yes but not behind the bars

Mooned someone: NO

Ran away from home: Planned to but have no money at the time, wahaha!

Laughed so hard you cried: Yeah

Cried in school: Yes

Thrown up in a store: Nope


THIS OR THAT

Pepsi or Coke: Neither

McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's

Single or Group Dates: Both

Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla

Strawberries or Blueberries: Neither

Meat or Veggies: Meat

Chinese or Mexican: Chinese

Cheerios or Corn Flakes: Cornflakes

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PS. Sheeesh, ang haba pala nyan.
Decent post coming right up ;)

SOON.

I will be back. Soon.