A Month of Celebration

March is my birth month and it's also coincidentally, International Women's month. Hence, I'd like to celebrate not just because of my birthday but also because I am at a point of my life where I am bombarded with moments of epiphany and empowerment.

So for this year's Marsobente (my birthday), I want to celebrate my life. I want to celebrate everything I've been through that made me the person that I am right now. I want to celebrate all the things - good or bad, that happened to me. I want to celebrate all the lessons I learned from all the pains and joys that I experienced along the way.

I want to celebrate all the great friends I had and still have. I want to celebrate the new people I met, the ones I crossed paths with again, and the ones I am yet to meet. I want to celebrate the people who lifted me up only to slam me down real hard. I want to celebrate the few genuine people I connected with very easily and very well. I want to celebrate the good men who liked me for who I am but I unfortunately didn't see as someone that can be more than a friend. I want to celebrate the men who made me feel that I wasn't enough and that I am nothing special. I want to celebrate the men who led me on and disappeared on me. I want to celebrate the men I wanted and admired but didn't feel the same way towards me. I want to celebrate the men who backed off because they couldn't handle my strong personality. I want to celebrate the people I hurt unintentionally . I want to celebrate the friends who became my support group during the times that I was at my weakest. I want to celebrate the new friends that I made and the old friends I reconnected with. I also want to celebrate those who were quick to judge me without bothering to ask me for an explanation and ironically still call me their "friend". I want to celebrate the friends who weren't happy for me when great things were finally happening in my life, especially on my career. I want to celebrate the friends who found it satisfying to talk about me behind my back. I want to celebrate the friends who were true and honest to me when it was easier to be otherwise.

I want to celebrate my pain. I want to celebrate the confusion and the uncertainties. I want to celebrate the frustrations and the disappointments. I want to celebrate my broken pieces and what's left of my beating heart. I want to celebrate the doubts, the lies, and the broken trust. I want to celebrate the emotional stress, the tears that I cried, and the sleepless nights. I want to celebrate the moments of realization. I want to celebrate the fact that I was not deserving of the bullshits that people threw my way. I want to celebrate the strength that I didn't know I have that helped me move forward in life. I want to celebrate the blessings that kept pouring in. I want to celebrate all the love that was given to me especially during those times that I was prolly the hardest person to love. I want to celebrate the people who took time to listen and those who had a heart to understand. I want to celebrate the new great things and people in my life. I want to celebrate the new friendships I found and the connections I built. I want to celebrate the ups after all the downs. I want to celebrate the rainbows after the storm that signified that there is still hope. I want to celebrate all the good and kind words that were told to me although until now, I still find it hard to believe.

Most of all, I want to celebrate the new me - the stronger, the wiser, and empowered version of myself. I want to celebrate the person that I have become as a result of all the good and bad things that happened in the past months.

I want to celebrate because my life, no matter how screwed up it is, is worth celebrating. I want to celebrate because I deserve this.

Six months and counting ♥

Mitch and I celebrated our sixth monthsary in advance because the 21st would fall on Holy Week. We spent the day together and since we agreed to do something different on special occasions like our monthsary, we tried the Manila Bay Cruise at Mall of Asia. We took the Sunset cruise schedule (5pm-7pm) so we could watch the sunset together and watch the fireworks while cruising in the bay. It was a nice experience. The scenery wasn't outstanding, though. And the food offered in the cruise wasn't really that great. However, it was such a romantic experience to watch the sea turn orange as the sun exits the horizon.

Aside from the Manila Bay Cruise, we also tried Banchetto for the second time. We ate breakfast there. It took us about half an hour to decide on what to eat and on what stall to buy it from. Food was amazing!! We were really stuffed. After at bacnhetto, we went straight to MOA to catch a movie. We watched Big Mommas II and it was friggin' hilarious! After the movie, we strolled around then ate lunch at Kitaro where we spent half of the time laughing and camwhoring. Since the cruise isn't until 5pm, we killed time at Timezone where we, for the nth time, tried to take home a stuffed toy from one of the machines. Every attempt was an epic failure but we still had a great time. Then by 4:40, we left Timezone and went to the port of Prestige Cruise, Inc. The cruise was pretty much the highlight of our celebration.

Now, we're done with six and so ready for our seventh month. We can't wait for our next celebration. We'd be on Boracay! Yeaaaah! Fast forward to May 21, please!!

Hearting today ♥

I don't wanna get too excited yet but I can't help it. I had my panel interview at Meralco and I think (and hope) that the result will be good. I mean, that I'll get in. It was a loooong day but I kind of feel like every thing was worth all my efforts. I really feel positive about it especially when one of the panelists mentioned "Anyway, we're going to hire you.." Waaaah! I really hope they would. It's too early to say but in the meantime, imma keep my fingers crossed.

Change topic. Had my hair cut today. About three inches was cut off but I still think that it's still kinda long. Ang init pa naman. So I'm planning to go have my hair cut again, maybe next week.

Anyway, before I went home, I dropped by at Gene's together with Tina and Cho. We were just four yet we had fun. I helped Cho write a cover letter for his resume... yeah, "helped" though I wrote the whole thing while he was busy texting his ex-girlfriend. That kinky guy, hahaha. We ate lotsa yummie empanadas and consumed two pitchers of juice. What can I say, we were "a bit" hungry. We're planning to have an overnight at Balia's tomorrow to celebrate something that I don't want to mention here yet. It's gonna be fun, I know. It always is.

I love this day. Everything went well eh and most importantly, today wasn't boring at all. Though there were moments of "little" sadness here and there, I managed to survive. Hahaha!! I wish tomorrow will be a nicer day or at least, be like today.

three-in-one.

Today is no ordinary day, at least for me and some Chinese and Catholic people out there. Imagine three events-slash-celebrations coincidentally compressed in one day. Ironic as it is, in spite of this, I'm not sure about how the day will go. Haven't made any plans at all and I don't know if my mom did some of her own but one thing's for sure, there's no way I'd be missing the mass today. Hmmm.. my day sure sounds busy but I don't think it is after all for a couple of reasons.


ASH WEDNESDAY
I'm not sure if "celebration" is the appropriate term for this. It's a shame but i gotta admit, I'm not even sure what's it exactly. So I really can't tell whether or not it's a celebration or whateva. All I know is that to attend the (watch out for tongue twisters) mass is a must. Now it got me to thinking why all these years, I haven't thought of asking my mom about Ash Wednesday. Lemme try later.


CHINESE NEW YEAR
Yes. It's already February according to the ever-reliable Gregorian Calendar but the Chinese community's new year is just about to begin. Oh well, what can I say, we (Chinese), love to deal with things on our own. Thus our own new year. Peace.

I have no idea on what our clan's plan for today or if there really is one. I don't recall my mom discussing something about it to me, which is pretty unusual. The only thing I'm sure of is that we'd be sticking to the default - the paisin. It's like a ritual. We do it to honor our loved ones who already passed away.


50th GOLDEN MONTHSARY ♥
This is the biggest celebration of the day, at least for me and for Erik. *smile

It's already been four long years and two months since we realized that God wants us to be together. 50 months sure sounds long but for Erik and I, it's not. We still have a long way to go and hopefully, a lifetime ahead of us. Fifty months is just a small fraction of the time we are destined to spend together.

Pardon me for being proud coz for this matter, I admit I am. Ang cute lang kasi na naisip namin yung concept of Golden Monthsary... parang Golden Wedding Anniversary lang eh. It still hasn't sinked in to me yet that we were able to come up with such a cute concept. Ambabaw ko, I know. Nakakatuwa lang kasi.

Since we haven't recovered yet from our splurge-almost-all-our-ipon fourth anniversary celebration, I'm not quite sure what will our Golden monthsary celebration be like. Hay nakooo kahit pa dvd marathon lang yan or kahit Nips at Cloud 9 lang ang foodang namin, I'm sure we can still make it a one heck of a celebration. Ipupusta ko buhay ko... this would be one of our most memorable and happiest celebrations.