Summer Outing? Duh.

The title has a tad bit of sarcasm on it. After I've updated my planner-slash-journal and my calendar of events/activities I've posted in my room, I just realized that I'll be out on all weekends of May. Well, almost all since the last week is still free. I really didn't realize it. I just kept saying yes to different groups of friends who planned to get together this summer. I can just imagine how neg-neg i'll get after all these outings. I will be a CHINITA. Half Chinese-Half Ita. Bwahahahaha!!

MY OWN CALENDAR OF ACTIVITIES/EVENTS

April 30 to May 1: Summer getaway with CRS Cheering Team 2011 (THUNDERS) at Puerto Galera

May 7 to May 8: Summer getaway with UPLB Street Jazz Dance Company at Nasugbu, Batangas

May 13 to May 14: Summer getaway with my BARKADA in the office at Canyon Cove

May 21 to May 23: Summer getaway with MITCH and another set of Meralco barkada at Boracay

May 28: STILL VACANT. Hahaha!

The downside of having lots of friends is spending much on seasons like Summer and Christmas. I remember, being on the same situation last December. Well, that was off-topic. Anyway, I can't wait for May.

Oh wait, what's the highest SPF available for sunblock again? *Big Smile*

You are my pain.

No matter how disappointed I get. Or how much long you keep me waiting. I will still be feeling this way. So go ahead... disappoint me, do keep me wait until I run out of patience. Keep doing it until the day I feel no sadness despite the disappointments anymore... Until I know no more pain... Until I turn numb. Til then, I will still say, I love you.

...and because I KNOW you're constantly checking on my blog site.

Call me judgmental, arrogant, assuming. I don't care. I call this being REAL.

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Dear YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE,

I don't need to be close to you or to talk to you everyday just to know you or the type of person that you are. You're much easier to read than a book I've kept since pre-school.

Truth is, I don't like you because I know you don't like me too. I've long tried to contain the fact that ignoring you forever will not be possible since we are on the same field but I will not be harmed if I try. I have tried a couple of times though to be friends but for some reason, I end up vomitting inside. I really cannot do it. Not just yet.

Probably because I still can not understand why on Earth would you make a fake account of mine in Facebook and try to ruin me. How low can you get and WHAT DID I EVER DO TO YOU? Huh. WHAT?! And the best-worst part of all of this is that you don't think that I'd find out. Well, be surprised because I did!

You think you're smart and you've figured everything out. You mapped out a plan of ruining me. Step 1: Create a Facebook account using my name and my picture. Step 2: Add friends who you know works at Meralco too. Step 3: Wait til a friend posts something. Step 4: And when someone finally does, you'd write stupid, mean, and low-life comments. Saying "THEN GO TO HELL!" for example. "Then go to hell"??? What the eff. Is that the best you've got. I honestly thought you could come up with something better. Something that's cheaper and dumber. But say what, you never fail to disappoint me, that is to say.

Here's another truth, I have not forgiven you yet. Forgiving someone who's not even asking for forgiveness and worse, not even owning up to the mistake, is not something that I am really good at. I am still frantically mad about this though it's been six months already since then. I can not forget nor forgive what you did.

Now, if you really want to be my friend, you just have to leave me alone. Let me move at my pace and STOP pushing my buttons. Use your mind and grow up. When that happens (if it ever will) then we can be friends.

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Whew! I feel a whole lot better now.

Ay Em Paking PAGOD =(

1) Of nursing all these "why" questions.

2) Of hoping that things will get better.

3) Of feeling inferior.

4) Of understanding things that I don't really know.

5) Of feeling fat and unpretty.

6) Of feeling that I'm never good enough to get what I want.

7) Of hearing pleas and excuses of why things are the way they are.

8) Of feeling like I am non-existent.

9) Of waiting for nothing.

10) Of being stubborn.

I really need to be slapped in the face. True friends, where you at?

Slap me, please. Slap me f*cking hard.

Six months and counting ♥

Mitch and I celebrated our sixth monthsary in advance because the 21st would fall on Holy Week. We spent the day together and since we agreed to do something different on special occasions like our monthsary, we tried the Manila Bay Cruise at Mall of Asia. We took the Sunset cruise schedule (5pm-7pm) so we could watch the sunset together and watch the fireworks while cruising in the bay. It was a nice experience. The scenery wasn't outstanding, though. And the food offered in the cruise wasn't really that great. However, it was such a romantic experience to watch the sea turn orange as the sun exits the horizon.

Aside from the Manila Bay Cruise, we also tried Banchetto for the second time. We ate breakfast there. It took us about half an hour to decide on what to eat and on what stall to buy it from. Food was amazing!! We were really stuffed. After at bacnhetto, we went straight to MOA to catch a movie. We watched Big Mommas II and it was friggin' hilarious! After the movie, we strolled around then ate lunch at Kitaro where we spent half of the time laughing and camwhoring. Since the cruise isn't until 5pm, we killed time at Timezone where we, for the nth time, tried to take home a stuffed toy from one of the machines. Every attempt was an epic failure but we still had a great time. Then by 4:40, we left Timezone and went to the port of Prestige Cruise, Inc. The cruise was pretty much the highlight of our celebration.

Now, we're done with six and so ready for our seventh month. We can't wait for our next celebration. We'd be on Boracay! Yeaaaah! Fast forward to May 21, please!!