sick again..boo!

Went to Ortigas yesterday for a check up. It has been almost 2 weeks already since I started having a fever, usually, during night time. My mom went ballistic on me coz I didn't want to go to the hospital. I really didn't think it was anything serious coz I don't feel really sick despite the fever. I feel lightheaded occasionally though. So to keep my mom calm, I went to Ortigas for a consultation.

"Twas a long, tiring day. I felt so exhausted walking under the sun from one building to another. It was like I was back in Elbi for a while only that instead of nature, you see tall buildings and people in corporate attire walking... with an umbrella! pfft.

Kung may sakit ka talaga tapos pinapunta ka dun, mabibinat ka lang. argh!

So they ran a series of tests... CBC, Urinalysis, Xray. The result was scary. Bad news is that, I am suffering an illness. Good news, it's not in any way, contagious and I am not dying or anything of the sort. THANK GOD!

The doctor said I need to have all the rest that I can get for a fast recovery. Good thing she didn't literally mention anything about toning down on physical activities. Whew!

LET'S DANCE! LET'S DANCE! LET'S DANCE! LET'S DANCE! LET'S DANCE! LET'S DANCE! LET'S DANCE! LET'S DANCE! LET'S DANCE! LET'S DANCE!

Boo Friday!

I was talking to an old friend awhile ago. Since he just celebrated his birthday last Sunday, I asked him a stupid question. Oo, super stupid talaga. I asked him kung anong feeling na 23 na sha. Oha! Then he asked me back… “Ready ka na ba?” I just found myself telling him that I honestly don’t care. Totoo naman e. i don’t care about Friday anymore. All I know is that I’m going to have an ordinary day.

Ang highlight lang, I’ll be on leave… thanks to Meralco’s concept of Birthday Leave. So, going back to the question, “Ready ka na ba?” The answer is Yes. Ready na ako. Ready na ako to face another ordinary day on Friday. I might even prolly have better ordinary days.

So yeah.. I say… BRING IT ON!

23rd March 20.

And I'm not really sure if there's anything to celebrate about it. I'm feeling that adulthood pressure enough already and for the first time in 5 years, my boyfriend won't be here to celebrate it with me. So tell me, is there anything happy about my birthday? Yes, it's a gift of life I know and I'm thankful for it. It's just that I know that this birthday will just be like an ordinary day.

I don't know how to make it special without Erik. =(

ABS-CBN issues statement regarding controversial "Blusa" episode of MMK

Maalaala Mo Kaya (MMK) has finally issued an official statement regarding the controversy brought about by their February 28 episode. They admitted that their staff didn't verify the story with UPLB thus, the controversy.

Being a BS Development Communication graduate, we were taught about the importance of validating and verifying all information acquired before writing and releasing the article. It's just like getting both sides of the story. It's very important that all the information is accurate so as not to mislead the general public.

In MMK's case, it's good that they apologized for their mistake. However, having the reputation of catering true to life stories, I just think that they should be more careful next time. Nakakasira kasi ng reputation ng iba ung mga ganyang pagkakamali. Apologizing can never undo the damage that their episode has on UP's reputation. UP holds no guarantee that MMK's apology will reach everybody who has seen MMK's February 28 episode, Blusa. But then again, the damage has already been done.

Dapat PROACTIVE ang mga ganyang show at hindi reactive.
Prevention is always better than cure. Diba?

Lucky friday the 13th!

Friday the 13th nanaman kahapon. If I remember it right, 2nd na yan for 2009. But so far, I didn't encounter anything naman which will make me feel unlucky. As a matter of fact, I have felt super lucky during the two Friday the 13th. I have a fever yesterday, though. But it did not make me feel unlucky at all.

It was my second time to dance with my new crew last night. Comparing it to my debut dance with the group, I really think I did better. I felt more confident last night. I think I successfully redeemed myself from my not-so-great performance at Rockwell last, last month. And I'm so happy na finally, may video na nung dance. At least may mapapakita na ako kay Erik. Weeee!

This is a super tiring week for me and I'm sooo happy that this week's almost over. Finally, I'll get to have some rest and some time to relax and hopefully, finish my room makeover.

P.S. I'll be turning 23 next Friday.. should I celebrate that or what? Hmmm..

hotcakes taste funny with vinegar.

Oo. At kung pano ko nalaman? =D Ewan ko kung sino ba ang mas may pagkakamali.. kung ako ba’y sadyang absent-minded lang o ung Mcdo ay sadyang may pagka-ano lang.

Dahil malapit na ang anniversary week ng Meralco, shempre may mga activities and games kung saan required ang mga employees to participate. Berigud lang ako at mashadong swerte na sa Fire Brigade, w/c is populary called as Obstacle Course, ako nakasali. Huwaaat! We were called for a practice nga nung Wednesday. 8am sharp kelangan nasa Main office na kami. FYI. Ever since the construction of the MRT extension from Monumento to North Ave started, traffic has never been a no show sa area ng Muñoz. As in.. traffic from Bagong Barrio to Muñoz. So what I did, I anticipated the traffic and left the house at around 6am. O diba ang aga ko? Only to find out na hindi pa naman pala traffic ng mga ganung oras. As in I arrived at Ortigas at exactly 7am. So I decided to eat breakfast at Mcdo first. I ordered 2 pc Hotcake and a hot choco. Just when I was looking for the syrup, I accidentally got the Vinegar. E kasi naman bukod sa pareho ng lalagyan, wala pang label. Malay ko ba naman diba? Nun na lang ulit ako kumain ng breakfast sa Mcdo kaya nun na lang ulit ako naka-order ng breakfast meals nila. So what happened next? Go figure it out! =D

So sino nga ba ang mas may pagkakamali? Ako ba na 5am nagising at absent-minded? O ang Mcdo na hindi man lang naglalagay ng labels? Well, I’d have to say Both.

Oh whatta day that was.

go ahead move if you wanna hit that.tired

I'm super tired. I still need to work on my stamina; otherwise, hindi ko kakayanin ung routine namin for the UP gig this 13th. Woooh! goodluck sa akin. Two reherarsals to go.. need to double time. I'm really tired. I think I'd sleep early tonight.. for a change.

Oha! Oha! At nakabuo ako ng isang sentence out of the songs that we're going to use. Pagod nga naman, wooh!

widgets galore! =D

I was exploring the net for widgets and I stumbled upon some cool ones. You can check it all out on the sidebar. I think my page became a lot more interactive and lively despite its pure white background.

And if you'll notice, I got meself a cyber puppy, Dacky. I named her after the Dachshund that I lost in September of 2007. She got out of the apartment and the last thing I've heard, the guy who got and didn't even bother to return her died. I still feel sad whenever I remember the day I lost her. Oh, I miss Dacky.

black is chic!

I painted my nails black and I’m loving it. so chic! Meheeeen, I’m just so bored today.

Do I look like a rakista? Or an emo perhaps?? But I do look bored, right?


Black is indeed chic... so is my Wordpress.
Check it out: http://akosizen.wordpress.com

dodging roaches.

If there will be a sport like that, then I'd be an athlete now. Haha. I don't know kung anong meron kagabi at bakit nakapasok ang mga flying ipis na yan sa loob ng bahay namin. Hay! ung mga ipis na gumagapang lang, that I can tolerate. Pero ung lumilipad.. YIKES!

But know what, God is soo good. Kasi kahit na takot na takot ako sa ipis, binigyan naman nya ako ng enough ability to sense kung may ipis sa paligid ko. For real. Basta makaamoy ako, alam ko na na meron. Tapos matalas ang mata ko pag sa ipis. Well, siguro human instinct talaga un.. na maging super alert ka para makaiwas sa pinaka-kinatatakutan mo.

Since childhood, takot na talaga ako sa ipis. Hindi ako takot sa daga.. nag-alaga pa nga ako ng bubwit dati e. :D Hindi rin ako takot sa iba pang peste sa bahay.. sa ipis lang talaga. At feeling ko super lumalala ung takot ko sa ipis. Ilang beses na ako muntik madisgrasya makaiwas/makalayo lang sa ipis. Kadiri kasi at ang iscurry ng kanilang ichura. parang nakatitig sayo though sabi ni Erik, hindi naman daw un ung talagang mata ng ipis.

Hay.. pano ba mawawala ung takot ko sa ipis? Natatawa nga ako kasi pag halimbawa itry ko magpatay ng ipis.. shempre unti-unti akong lalapit. At right after ko paluin ng slippers, magsisigaw ako at tatakbo palayo. O sige, tawa pa! Huhu. Hindi talaga ako natatahimik pag alam kong may ipis na malapit sa akin at nakatago lang. Pag nga nakakakita ako ng ipis, tinitinginan ko talaga mabuti at binabantayan kung san na sha napupunta e. Kasi oras na mawala sha sa paningin ko, mapaparanoid na ako. Mukha lang akong tanga, hehe.

Buti na lang ang galing ko umilag at alisto ako kagabi. Whew! para akong nag-exercise. :D

I Remember. Yes, I Remember.

It was in summer of last year when my relationship with my boyfriend went on the rocks. We both had issues - mostly personal ones that we had to deal with that time. Looking back, I can say that the issue came from my end. I was dealing with a personal issue for so long during that time... I've kept that to myself for too long until one day I realized that I don't know myself anymore, or what I want or need to do in my life. I kinda blamed my boyfriend for it and I felt like he didn't fully understand what I was going through and what he had to do with it. So I asked for space out of fear that one day I'll wake up hating him and loving him no more. However to him, it was either way painful and it (asking for space and breakup) almost meant the same. Prolly, to take away all the complications that he can, he took the liberty of asking for a breakup, w/c out of stupidity, I granted.

Tears fell as the weeks passed. We were both in pain... our families were too. I remember my mom would cry with me at night. And during the weekends at LB, my anak-anakans would cry with me too. His sibs would text me everyday just to ask how I was. Everybody who have been a witness of our great love story were all very affected. To have witnessed us grow together in the stretch of four years and six months, they all felt like they have to do something to help us work things out. But they just ended up feeling helpless.

I kept myself busy with my work. Erik, on the other hand, diverted all his attention to dancing. He got his dancing career going good and slowly he was recognized by the dance community. He was often invited to conduct dance classes in the metro. It's what kept him busy during the weekends... the weekends that we were supposed to spend together if we hadn't broken up.

Knowing him, I know he will put whatever it is that he feels to his dancing and so I was watchful of what song he will use in his classes because at that time, it was my only way of knowing. Yes, we were not talking. Of course, I was right. Guess, I know him pretty well. june 28 gave me the validation that I needed. Erik hates me and just like me, he's in so much pain. He used Keyshia Cole's I Remember. The moment I saw in Multiply that he's going to use that song, I immediately googled it and the next thing I know, I was crying nonstop. I called in sick at work the following day because my eyes were totally swollen. I was a mess.

Yes.. I Remember. That was the song that made me ache as if my heart was cut into pieces or maybe worse than that. I felt like a huge part of me died. Then, I turned numb. It was that song. Yes, it was that song that gave me the most excruciating pain in the history of breakups. Few days after that, i got used to the presence of pain. There were no more tears. What can be more painful than seeing him dance all his pain and hatred out, right? what can be more painful than the message of that song.

I remember when my heart broke.
I remember when I gave up loving you.
My heart couldn't take no more of you.
I was sad and lonely.
I remember when I walked out.
I remember when I screamed I hated you.
But somehow deep inside I'm still loving you.
I'm sad and lonely.

See what I mean? I almost gave up because of this song. But I'm glad I didn't. I was able to use the numbness I have to my advantage. I tried to get him back but he kept rejecting me telling me he's not sure if he still wants to. But I kept on trying anyway.I wasn't feeling any pain anymore kaya malakas na malakas na ang loob ko. I practically have nothing to lose. Oo, hinabol ko sya. Pinaglaban ko ang pagmamahal ko. And I'm glad that I did. Because one day, he came to me and I was full of tears with arms wide open.

I still burst into tears whenever I hear or think of this song during the first months after we got back together. It was a song that I cannot avoid because it was one of his best works. And as the months passed, I find myself gradually coping with the situation. There were no longer tears but there's still a little bit of pain. And today, I accidentally heard this song again in my player and there was no pain at all. I just found myself smiling to the memories this song has in me.

I Remember. This song will forever be a part of me. It will forever be a part of my history. It will forever remind me of the things that I learned in love and life. Above all, it wil remind me that in my life, I have learned to love FOREVER.

ERIK'S Choreography to Keyshia Cole's I REMEMBER

i.am.sick.and.it.sucks.

I am supposed to attend a wedding of two of my close friends from college but I woke up with a fever. This sucks. I really wanted to go because theirs is the first wedding that I was invited to as part of the guest list. But hey, it's not like I gatecrashed every wedding I attended to before this. It's just that, when I attend weddings before, it's either because the couple was a relative or because my family was invited. But this? This is special because the bride and the groom are my friends.. people who I've shared ups and downs with in college.Wrong timing talaga!

Talking about weddings, I am turning 23 on the 20th and most of my friends are about the same age as mine or a little younger/older (Age bracket: 21 to 26). Then that's when it hit me... We are now in or approaching the marrying age. Oh well, this is just one of the inevitable things in life.

Cheers to the good life!

A REPOST: UPLB reacts to ABS-CBN's Maalala Mo Kaya episode

This is just a repost from the official website of the University of the Philippines Los Baños. I watched this episode of Maalaala Mo Kaya (MMK) like I always do since I am oftentimes moved by their featured stories. But upon watching the Feb 28 episode entitled "Blusa", I was really surprised because it featured a story of a Summa Cum Laude graduate from UP who had a super hard time finding a job and ended as a stripper. I can't quite possibly believe it at first because the first thing that entered my mind was that "Ako nga ang bilis nakahanap ng trabaho considering na mas mahirap ngayon tapos sha Summa Cum Laude pero nahirapan?" I was quite bothered at first but I didn't have the time and resources to verify the truth behind the story. So when I stumbled upon this blog entry, I read it and was relieved.

Read on...

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SOURCE: http://uplb.edu.ph/index.php/news-and-announcements/79-uplb-reacts-to-controversial-maalala-mo-kaya-episode

Written by the Office of Public Relations

Friday, 06 March 2009 15:10

UPLB has issued an official statement to ABS-CBN Broadcasting Corporation in light of a recent episode of their Maalala Mo Kaya program which inadvertently cast a bad light on the University and its constituents. The complete letter is as follows: Our attention has been called by constituents and alumni to an episode featured in Maala-ala Mo Kaya entitled "Blusa," which was aired on ABS-CBN on Feb. 28 and on TFC recently. Our constituents and alumni were concerned whether the episode was based on truth. The story was of a woman who allegedly graduated BS AgriBusiness, summa cum laude, from the University of the Philippines Los Baños or UPLB, who could not find a job, and ended up a stripper. We tried to find out who the subject was by tracking all 27 of our summa cum laude graduates from the time the University was established in 1909. We could not find anyone matching the subject as portrayed in "Blusa." Whether or not the subject was a UPLB graduate, we deeply sympathize with her and her family. However, in the interest of maintaining its reputation as a truthful storyteller, the MMK should have a mechanism to validate claims by letter senders especially those that require a stretch of imagination as to be believed. While indeed touching and a perfect example of a human-interest story, "Blusa" regrettably affected the reputation of UPLB as an educational institution and its constituents and alumni. We therefore request ABS-CBN to set the record straight and correct the wrong impression that it created among its viewers. We also make an appeal to producers of similar programs to be more prudent in reporting stories with claims that would affect the reputation not only of a school but also of its alumni in the Philippines and abroad. Thank you. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- POST-SCRIPT: I'm not sure if UPLB was the UP Campus mentioned in the story or if they specified one. However, as far as I know (anyone's free to correct me if I'm wrong), UPLB is the only UP Campus that offers Agriculture-related courses.

survey in the middle of the night.

Grabbed this survey from Tin's cutesy page =)

1.In 1 word, explain yesterday. Why?
* tiring! I had a long day at work. I always do.

2. Who made u smile today?
* Erikson ♥

3. What were u doing this morning at 8am.?
* I was exercising my leg.

4. What were u doing 15 minutes ago?
* putting back my cbox at my blogspot acct.

5. Something that happened to u in 1985?
* i was a work in progress, I guess. hahaha!

6. Worst thing currently on television:
* the sad news about Francis M.

7 . How many different beverages have you drank today?
* 2 lang ata. Water and Fit n' Ryt.

8. What is ur favorite part of the day?

* night. i get to experience peace.

9. Your current To-do list?
* tapusin ang bedroom make-over!

10. Where is ur best friend right now?

* nasa Saudi!

11. What color is ur toothbrush?
* white and magenta.

12. What are u wearing right now?
* Pj's and an oversized shirt.

13. Any plans for Friday night?
* next Friday? yep!

14. Least favorite place to shop.
* high end stores.

15. things u bought today?
* none.

16. Last gift you received?
* My very own copy of Men are From Mars and Women are from Venus!

17. Who gave you that?
* Erik :)

18. What made you sad today?
* i was feeling sick.

19. What makes you happy?
* I'll tell you but I'd have to kill you =P

20. Beautiful:
* ME! bwahaha! LIFE.. Life is beautiful!

21. Describe your key chain:
* Marami akong keychain.

22. Where do u keep ur change?
* In my wallet.

23. Are u happy with ur life?
* Oh yes!

24. What are u thinking of right now?
* budget for my room makeover.

25. Person u trust the most?
* ERIK.

26. Do you have A best friend?
* Oo naman.

27. Have you ever seen your best friend naked?
*Pag sinabi ko bang hindi, maniniwala ka? ;)

28. Are you obsessed with someone?
* nope.

29. Do you like more than one person right now?
* no.

30. What was the last thing you ate?
* roasted chicken.

31. What day is it today?
* it’s saturday.

32. When was the last time you kissed someone?
* yung last? January 27 pa. :(

33. Are most of your friends guys or girls?
* sa super close friends, guys ata.

34. Would you consider yourself a trustworthy person?
* aba'y oo naman.

35. Do you have a lot of patience?
* it depends.

36. What’ s your favorite scent?
* ung amoy ng bagong ligo :) amoy fresh!

37. Are you moody?
* nope.

38. What’ s your favorite movie of all time?
* Edward Scissorhands!!

39. Have you ever had a crush on your brother/sister’s friend?
* Nope. I don't have any interest on younger guys.

40. Do you have regrets in your life?
* We all have.

i shall return.. and i did!

So i've decided to keep this blog account coz I've been seeing a lot of improvements with Blogger's widgets. And since that's (widgets) one of the reasons why I decided to leave this account, now that it has already improved, maybe I can give it another try here. However, expect to read or see the same stuff here and at my other account. =)

You can also go check out my Wordpress. Click to go to my Wordpress.