Goodbye 2011. Hello 2012.

For the past two years, I posted a super long entry summarizing the year that was about to exit my life. However, for this year, I don't think I'd do the same. However, what I will do is share the things that I have learned and realized this 2011.

It wasn't a perfect year but it was in all sense, a great one. I felt, learned, needed, wanted, and realized a lot of things in 2011. And I am wisely picking what I am going to bring in to face 2012. I pray to be able to face the next year without any excess baggage. I played a great role in 2011 as the "traveller-wanna-be" and I am hopeful that after all the trips that I have taken, I have learned to pack well and to pack light.

2011 was a year of too many ups and too many downs for me. It was literally a roller-coaster ride of emotions. I felt so imperfect. I felt so down. I felt so happy. I felt so sad. I felt so embarrassed. I felt needed. I felt so insignificant. I felt so in love. I felt so afraid. I felt wanted. I felt unwanted. I felt pretty and sexy. I felt ugly and fat. I felt insecure. I felt pity. I felt rage. I felt doubt. I felt passion. I felt grief. I felt loss. I felt lost. I felt nothing. I felt apathy. I felt so many positive and negative things this year. And I thank God for letting me feel all these because I believe I have become a stronger and a more confident person. I have gotten all the validation I need and not getting the validation I want and not getting it from the person or people I want to get it from will not break me... at least, not anymore.

2011 was not just a year to me that came and will soon be gone because it was in its lifeless way, a great teacher. I learned how to cook Kaldereta. I learned that Vicks inhaler is the most effective drug for me. I learned that it is possible to be pimple-free. I learned that havaianas look and feel great when you wear them but it breaks easily. I learned that water, alone, can heal colds. I learned a lot of pickup lines. I learned that eating something sweet will actually give you extra energy. I learned how to do simple music editing. I learned to work on my own. I learned that I can be responsible. I learned that I can work solo to come up with something big. I learned that no matter how much you try to plan a perfect trip, at some point it will still fail. I learned new things that can hurt me because it has repeatedly hurt me a lot of times for the past year. I learned how to deal with myself, my feelings, with others, and others' feelings. I learned to take care of myself. I learned to be tougher to face things on my own because in the end, all you really have is yourself. I learned that the only person you can trust to not let you down is yourself. I learned that not all dogs bark first when you piss them off, most of them bite right away. I learned that not being on the same page creates a lot of misunderstanding. I learned that sleep can break my heart. I learned that I should stop begging for what I want because it just hurts more if you still don't get it after you have begged. I learned to have a pride and to keep it as much as possible, low. I learned that love and commitment should really go hand in hand in a relationship. I learned that there is still hope in being hopeless. I learned that friends do come and go. I learned that friends who decided to go, sometimes decides to come back. I learned that life can be really short. I learned that this can be the last day of my life. I learned the difference between needs and wants. I learned a lot about true love. I learned about patience and understanding. I learned about heartbreaks and how to face them. I learned that simple things can make someone really happy. I learned that you cannot teach someone to want or to need you the way you want them to. I learned the true value of money and that it is the cheapest thing in the universe but is also the most powerful one since it can make the world go round. I learned that I can be who I want to be. I learned that I can do good alone but I do better when I work with someone. I learned that two cups of coffee a day can cause me palpitation. I learned that no matter how insignificant or how simple or how complicated these lessons are, I am just so thankful that I LEARNED.

As I evaluate the year 2011, I realized I still have so many needs and wants. Some of these were already satisfied but I still need to work on most of them. As much as I'd like to write it all down to the littlest detail, it's too personal. However, to share a few, I know I still need to work on my cooking. I want to further strengthen my relationship with God. I need to learn how to strictly follow my budget. I want to lose weight. I need to lose weight to ensure good health. I want to be totally financially independent. I need to work harder for the things that I want to achieve. And the list goes on. I am just thankful that I already know what I need to get what I want and to make sure that I have everything that I need. I only need prayers and hardwork. Right? Right!

2011 is about to end in a few hours and I am really excited for the coming year. We are all clueless of what it has to offer but what excites me more about it is that it is another chance for change. Another chance to make things right. Another chance to make things happen. Another chance to chase my dreams. Another chance to love better. Another chance to work harder. Another chance to live life.

2011, you were a great year for me but you have to go and make way for 2012.
2012, I am hopeful that you'd be better than 2011 and that we'd be good to each other.
CHEERS TO THE NEW YEAR!! CHEERS TO THE GOOD LIFE!!

Kiss kiss kiss mo (sa pader)

She tries to kiss you.
And you pull away.

UNTITLED

I really wanted to write last night to somehow release this depression. But I know myself too well. I may end up writing something that I wish I didn't. So I let the moment pass before I decided to blog about this. I don't want to go in to details anymore, though. Wow, parang si KC lang. Hehe. 


I need someone to talk to or so I thought. But I realized it'd be pointless. It'd just be a waste of time for the people who knows what I'm going through right now because they'll just be hearing and saying the same thing. And it's tiresome too, you know. Hearing the same thing from different people. I'm tired of being told of my stupidity or martyrdom or whatever this can be called. So I preferred to stare on this lifeless monitor that won't even console me. Blogging has always been one of my refuge at times like this. I just hope it hasn't lost its magic yet. We'll see.

11.11.11.

Of course, just like last 9.10.11, I wouldn't miss having an entry dated 11.11.11. for the world. This comes only once in a lifetime. I think that's about it.

P.S. If it wasn't too personal, I'd write a letter for someone here. For now, I'd rather keep my thoughts to myself.

Of long weekends and Nostalgia

Spent the long weekend at Ilocos with my highschool friends. I am so glad I joined the trip. Every penny was worth it. The great scenery, the trip, the food, the bonding, the pictures, everything about it was a great and fun, fun, fun experience.

'Twas my second time to visit the place. The first was in June 2010 with my friends from Meralco. However, I was still blown away by the beauty of Ilocos - the vintage establishments, the history, and the beach.

From L to R: Maricar.Princess.Camille.Dim.Jojo.Gene.Jhul.Kit.ME.Mikes.Rona.

The whole trip was crazy and full of excitement and laughter. There was never a dull moment while we were awake. It was like running back and forth memory lane. We talked about a lot of stuff; most are crazy and some are serious. Oh my, it was really fascinating to see how each of us have grown and  matured but is still the same person that we were back in highschool. One got engaged already; most are still single; one is heartbroken; the other came out of his closet and is more gay than I can imagine. All of us have a job but still figuring out if we really are on the right track.

It was fun to look back on the old days. The place was perfect for our trip because it was like going back in time when we were just highschool kids who dreamt of having the perfect job and making good money.

P.S. I highly recommend EXPLORE NORTH. They offer affordable and well-organized tour packages. Check them out.

Our 2nd October 21st :)

with Bebe Love <3

…because the first one was when we became each other’s better half 

Off to Bohol to celebrate 12 months of lovin’. This was taken a few minutes ago at Manila Domestic Airport while waiting for our flight. We re so happy in lalalalalove!

Of 15th of October Surprises, Frogs, and Friendships

This year’s 15^th of October was the longest and most dramatic Saturday that I can remember.

It was Froggy’s birthday. Being that he’s one of my closest pals, I know how he is. He loves setting up surprises for other people but he doesn’t want the same for himself. Weird, right? As a matter of fact, his senses and radar are extra sensitive every 15^th of October. His mindset is that it’s his turn to be surprised. Froggy loves spoiling surprises for him as much as he loves setting up surprises for others. Yes, that’s how he really is. 

Bottom line is, we were able to surprise him for two consecutive years already. As much as he would hate to admit it, he was surprised and indeed, touched. By the way, the party lasted overnight. Venue and other arrangements were taken cared of by Marvin Oriarte (mastermind). 

SURPRAAAAAAAYYYS!! 

Froggy’s party was more like a reunion more than it was a birthday party. Karlo, our long(figuratively) lost friend, decided to come over.  And as much as I would hate to admit it, I really missed the guy. It’s been almost a year since our misunderstanding happened and for me, that ship has already sailed. Time really heals wounds, I guess.

P.S. Thanks to Marvin Oriarte (mastermind) for letting us use Suede Room Studio as the venue.

Promotion is Sweeter the 2nd Time Around :)

Finally, the result of my technical exam was released earlier today! The result? Let’s just say, GOD IS GOOD!! I am so happy like a happy meal. Lol.

After almost two months of waiting, I finally got what I have been praying for - my second promotion! (Yes, the exclamation point is really necessary. Lol.) Finally. Thank you, Lord. Since I waited for almost two months, I cannot help but nurse a sort of “panic” about the result of my exam. Out of sheer desperation, I remember forwarding every single silly chain text message that I received while waiting for the long overdue result. But today, I feel like I am salvaged.

I feel so much better now because earlier this week, I was full of doubts - questioning my decisions, and my judgment. I, for awhile, felt like I am heading to the unknown without a plan for a good monumental escape.

The timing was really perfect. God is really good. When you are at what you can consider a low point of your life, He hugs you with this kind of good things to remind you that everything is worth it and that all else will be okay.

Thank you, God.

Call for Justice: RIP Given Grace Cebanico

Our God is a God of justice.

MAY THE BALLS OF HER KILLERS ITCH ENDLESSLY 

AND MAY THEIR ARMS BE TOO SHORT TO SCRATCH IT.

Only in the Philippines: Kwek-kwek Lovin'

Kwek-kwek lovin'

Here's a dose of lovely cholesterol. My favorite streetfood next to isaw. I took this photo yesterday. I ate a total of nine kwek-kwek. It's over-priced in our canteen. In the street, you can buy four of it for ten bucks but on our office, it's three-for-ten. Demmit. 

P.S. The only time I put Vinegar in my food is when I eat kwek-kwek. 

Spell Odd: m-y-(space)-m-e-m-o-r-y

There really are things that you will always remember for some reason that even you cannot understand. Weird, I know but not as weird as remembering the birthday of my classmate in grade school, who goes by the name Walton. His birth date is October 10, which was yesterday. Man, I am not even close to the person and never was and no offense meant but it’s not like he is someone special or significant in my life. But I never missed remembering his birthday since I-cannot-remember-when. This made me wonder, if someone, somewhere, remembers something about me too the way I remember Walton’s birthday every year no matter how insignificant I am in his/her life.

First Love Never Dies

Sometimes, you realize something and it breaks your heart.

Okay. I miss dancing. I still want to dance. I want to come back. But the more that I want it... the harder it is to reach. The feeling is like entering a place you know by heart only to find out that nothing there is familiar anymore. I guess I've been gone for so long. I don't know where and how to pick up. I always believed that if I really want it, I'll find a way to go back. But then, I realized that it's not always the case. Wanting something so bad doesn't mean you'll get it. Not possible especially if you're not willing to make a sacrifice. You cannot serve two masters at the same time.

I tried to find a tangent between dancing and my professional career but it is just so hard. I don't think I can meet the level of commitment that dancing is going to require from me if I ever decide to go back. And it's not like I can sacrifice my career for dancing. Reality check. I am not as good as others. There's no bright future waiting for me in dance. And I need something stable. I need a fallback.

For now, I will just keep my faith that my decisions will bring me to the right path. I am not losing hope because my love for dance will never end. No matter what happens, it will always be what it has always been to me - my first love.

Of Multi-tasking and Instagram

So what else is perfect for a lazy afternoon? Movie! and Chips! and Wifi! and Bed!

I really need to save up money in prep for my upcoming trips this last quarter of the year. So in accordance to this "so-effin-hard-to-achieve" goal (ehem ehem), I try to stay home as much as possible, like today. And here's what I realized: It's easier to stay at home and avoid getting bored (Thank you, Instagram) than to go out and avoid spending. I know, it's like stating the obvious and not that it's big of a deal, maybe I'm just trying to calm myself here. Hehe.

Too much of avoiding boredom, I am watching a movie, blogging, instagramming, and eating chips simultaneously. And I'm doing all these without sweat. I know, it's really not something I should be proud of. Someone out there or maybe you could do all these better or prolly can do even more. Duh. Anyway, back to what I was saying.

The Movie: The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants 2.
I watched the first one and liked it so when I knew about its 2nd movie (Thanks to Astroplus), I bought a copy. And I was right. I am enjoying the movie so far. Reminds me pretty much of Now and Then, a movie from 1990-something. It was also about a story of four friends who grew up together and blah blah blah. Blake Lively is so pretty. Her looks never changed even after she got in to Gossip Girl. But Amber Tamblyn is my favorite. Not that I can relate to her because I don't think we're the same. I just really lover her character in the movie and her beauty.

Reminds me of my lovies, Rosa-Leri-Joy!

And the photo above is an indication of how fast I got addicted to Instagram, right? Oh no.

Instagram, finally.

I was so intrigued on how Instagram works so I used my brother's Iphone to experience its features. 'Twas cool since you don't need to manually edit the photos. You can just set it according to your preferences. Too bad you need an Iphone to use this. However, with the pacing of technological breakthroughs nowadays, in no time, Instagram will be available to non I-phone users. Otherwise, I am doomed because this is pretty addicting.

Someday. Someday.

Anyway, here is my first Instagrammed photo. And I'm still Instagramming right now. I want an Iphone!! Oh no!!

Test shot feat. my Champ

Bonchon: The best chicken in America

I don’t know about the tagline since I haven’t been anywhere outside Asia ever. I know little about Bonchon Chicken. I’ve only heard of it in Facebook because some of my friends would post statuses about how delicious the said chicken is. So, much to my intrigue, when I saw this in Shangri-La last week, I told Boyfriend that I want to eat there so we did.

I ordered 2-pc Drumsticks marinated with Soy-garlic while boyfriend had Porkchop. The food tasted great. The Porkchop was yummier though. My friends were right, Bonchon Chicken is indeed delicious. A bit pricey (145 PhP) for the size of the chicken though but for the taste, it’s A-okay!

Service at Bonchon was tad bit disappointing. Lucky them their food compensated for the bad service. We ate there at around 2:30pm and paid them 500 bucks. Our total bill amounted to 305 PhP but I had to wait a few more minutes (15-20) to get my change. It’s not like the place had few customers; it was actually jam-packed so why the heck would they have trouble in giving out changes, right? Right! Plus, their cashiers really seemed inexperienced.

While we were at the counter, one of the service crew (SC) took the initiative of finding a table for us. It was really, really nice of him to do that. However, when we got to the table, it was still dirty. There were water spillage, drops of sauce, and other what not on the table. We had to ask another SC to clean our table. Not only that, while we were eating, the table beside us got vacant so expectedly, an SC cleaned the table and he accidentally spilled the glass of water on our side of the table. Lucky him, Antonio didn’t get wet at all. Whew!

Bonchon *burp*

So to sum this up,
Bonchon Chicken= great food=bad service

Nth Comeback post

Out of boredom, I decided to read my older entries. Doing so made me realize that most of my entries really didn’t make any sense. If it isn’t about how boring my day was, it was about how things suck. I wrote a few happy entries, though. I don’t know. I miss writing with passion. I miss writing and actually making sense. What happened to me?

9, 10, 11

Cute date today. That's it.

Francel de Leon

Rest in Peace, brother.

Thank you for all the goodtimes, laughters, and smiles that you've shared with me. We may have known each other for a short time but I will never forget you. You were such a goo friend to us... a great lover to Leri... a good son to your parents... a brother to everybody.

We love you, Francel. Thank you for everything.

FRANCEL PANGANIBAN DE LEON

May 11, 1986 - August 28, 2011

Back?

I lost passion and want in writing. I lost time. I lost everything I have that makes me want to write. And just because I wrote again today, it doesn't necessarily mean that I had it back, whatever it is that got lost. I don't know really. I am tired of analysing things so I'm just writing while I want to. No more over-thinking because it stresses me A LOT.

So yeah, I guess I'm back to writing (for) now.

26 years.

It's my mom and dad's 26th anniversary today. We celebrated, all four of us. They picked me up at the office after my duty (4pm) then we went to this small spa near SM Marilao, Solace Spa. We had a relaxing massage. After the massage, we went to Pixie's and bought dinner. Then to another stall of a very infamous yummy crispy pata. Then at Ministop and bought Icecream and a cake. Then went home and had a simple dinner with baby brother and his yaya. I super love this day. We are so happy celebrating their love.

Twenty-six Years of togetherness. Cheers to the good life!

One cold summer night.

Ellipsis

I am 25.

When you get to "THE" stage of your life where you, sooner or later, would be altar-bound, your priorities, goals, perspective, and lifestyle change. Everything changes. At least for me.

Growing up + Feeling grown up = Another (higher) level of maturity

When I was younger, I thought the perfect life plan is to get married at age 24 and have a baby at 25. That was the kind of life schedule (if I should call it that) my mom had so I wanted my life to happen that way too. But I realized, it's really not something that can be scheduled or planned.

So here's the thing, I am 25. Not yet married, not even engaged, and (fortunately) not yet a mom. In short, the life plan I constructed for myself was more like just some random note doodled on a scratch paper out of boredom that should go directly to the trash bin and be recycled. But hey, I do not feel any remorse about this. I'm happy the way my life turned out to be. I am young. I have a loving boyfriend, a stable job, and lots of good friends. I am living a pretty much happy life.

Last night, I got myself to thinking and it has dawned on me how I've matured and changed over the years. From thinking about booze and monopoly nights with friends, taking a leave at work for a dance gig, random movie nights, and the like, I now think of saving up for the future, taking up masters degree, job promotion, marriage and family. Wow, things are really different now. I am still the same person though, only with different priorities. Different goals.

I am at a point in my life where:

Boyfriend comes first before family.

Work before leisure.

Church before play.

I don't mean this is in any negative way. We were taught that family should always come first and that was what I was taught too but things are different now. I am now building a life of my own. A life that only I can make or break and it's not like I love my family any less. I love them just as much, prolly even more. Thing is, I like to build with my boyfriend a relationship as deep as I have with my family because I know someday, he will be my family. We will be each other's family.

Life is never simple nor easy. It's not like a movie where you write the script and everything just falls accordingly. It can change faster than a snap. It's your response to the changes that determines how your life will go. It's your life... live it. Just some tip though, if you think you've had it all figured out, you haven't. *naughty grin*

Summer Outing? Duh.

The title has a tad bit of sarcasm on it. After I've updated my planner-slash-journal and my calendar of events/activities I've posted in my room, I just realized that I'll be out on all weekends of May. Well, almost all since the last week is still free. I really didn't realize it. I just kept saying yes to different groups of friends who planned to get together this summer. I can just imagine how neg-neg i'll get after all these outings. I will be a CHINITA. Half Chinese-Half Ita. Bwahahahaha!!

MY OWN CALENDAR OF ACTIVITIES/EVENTS

April 30 to May 1: Summer getaway with CRS Cheering Team 2011 (THUNDERS) at Puerto Galera

May 7 to May 8: Summer getaway with UPLB Street Jazz Dance Company at Nasugbu, Batangas

May 13 to May 14: Summer getaway with my BARKADA in the office at Canyon Cove

May 21 to May 23: Summer getaway with MITCH and another set of Meralco barkada at Boracay

May 28: STILL VACANT. Hahaha!

The downside of having lots of friends is spending much on seasons like Summer and Christmas. I remember, being on the same situation last December. Well, that was off-topic. Anyway, I can't wait for May.

Oh wait, what's the highest SPF available for sunblock again? *Big Smile*

You are my pain.

No matter how disappointed I get. Or how much long you keep me waiting. I will still be feeling this way. So go ahead... disappoint me, do keep me wait until I run out of patience. Keep doing it until the day I feel no sadness despite the disappointments anymore... Until I know no more pain... Until I turn numb. Til then, I will still say, I love you.

...and because I KNOW you're constantly checking on my blog site.

Call me judgmental, arrogant, assuming. I don't care. I call this being REAL.

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Dear YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE,

I don't need to be close to you or to talk to you everyday just to know you or the type of person that you are. You're much easier to read than a book I've kept since pre-school.

Truth is, I don't like you because I know you don't like me too. I've long tried to contain the fact that ignoring you forever will not be possible since we are on the same field but I will not be harmed if I try. I have tried a couple of times though to be friends but for some reason, I end up vomitting inside. I really cannot do it. Not just yet.

Probably because I still can not understand why on Earth would you make a fake account of mine in Facebook and try to ruin me. How low can you get and WHAT DID I EVER DO TO YOU? Huh. WHAT?! And the best-worst part of all of this is that you don't think that I'd find out. Well, be surprised because I did!

You think you're smart and you've figured everything out. You mapped out a plan of ruining me. Step 1: Create a Facebook account using my name and my picture. Step 2: Add friends who you know works at Meralco too. Step 3: Wait til a friend posts something. Step 4: And when someone finally does, you'd write stupid, mean, and low-life comments. Saying "THEN GO TO HELL!" for example. "Then go to hell"??? What the eff. Is that the best you've got. I honestly thought you could come up with something better. Something that's cheaper and dumber. But say what, you never fail to disappoint me, that is to say.

Here's another truth, I have not forgiven you yet. Forgiving someone who's not even asking for forgiveness and worse, not even owning up to the mistake, is not something that I am really good at. I am still frantically mad about this though it's been six months already since then. I can not forget nor forgive what you did.

Now, if you really want to be my friend, you just have to leave me alone. Let me move at my pace and STOP pushing my buttons. Use your mind and grow up. When that happens (if it ever will) then we can be friends.

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Whew! I feel a whole lot better now.

Ay Em Paking PAGOD =(

1) Of nursing all these "why" questions.

2) Of hoping that things will get better.

3) Of feeling inferior.

4) Of understanding things that I don't really know.

5) Of feeling fat and unpretty.

6) Of feeling that I'm never good enough to get what I want.

7) Of hearing pleas and excuses of why things are the way they are.

8) Of feeling like I am non-existent.

9) Of waiting for nothing.

10) Of being stubborn.

I really need to be slapped in the face. True friends, where you at?

Slap me, please. Slap me f*cking hard.

Six months and counting ♥

Mitch and I celebrated our sixth monthsary in advance because the 21st would fall on Holy Week. We spent the day together and since we agreed to do something different on special occasions like our monthsary, we tried the Manila Bay Cruise at Mall of Asia. We took the Sunset cruise schedule (5pm-7pm) so we could watch the sunset together and watch the fireworks while cruising in the bay. It was a nice experience. The scenery wasn't outstanding, though. And the food offered in the cruise wasn't really that great. However, it was such a romantic experience to watch the sea turn orange as the sun exits the horizon.

Aside from the Manila Bay Cruise, we also tried Banchetto for the second time. We ate breakfast there. It took us about half an hour to decide on what to eat and on what stall to buy it from. Food was amazing!! We were really stuffed. After at bacnhetto, we went straight to MOA to catch a movie. We watched Big Mommas II and it was friggin' hilarious! After the movie, we strolled around then ate lunch at Kitaro where we spent half of the time laughing and camwhoring. Since the cruise isn't until 5pm, we killed time at Timezone where we, for the nth time, tried to take home a stuffed toy from one of the machines. Every attempt was an epic failure but we still had a great time. Then by 4:40, we left Timezone and went to the port of Prestige Cruise, Inc. The cruise was pretty much the highlight of our celebration.

Now, we're done with six and so ready for our seventh month. We can't wait for our next celebration. We'd be on Boracay! Yeaaaah! Fast forward to May 21, please!!

Inlababong Bogart: Post #1

He's all that matters. He can either break or make my day. Only he can do that. I'm just so in love and i can no longer explain why. Prolly because this time it's really real. He's that someone.*crossfingers*

Some of my Untold Adventures (March 2011)

March was a busy month for me, especially at work. The only good thing about this month is that I lost wait effortlessly. I met an injury. I have tendonitis. I can't bend or straighten my left leg without feeling tremendous pain. I've always been very tolerant with physical pain so when I say something hurts, it really does. Boohoo! Oh, and I turned 25. This is by far the best birthday ever.

Meralco-Valenzuela Business Center Summer Outing 2011

Villa Concepcion Wet n Wild (Marchn 5)

We have "special" guests!

Yayan meets Kuya Mishhh

Cosmikidz, Mall of Asia (March 12)

We look so wasted because we've been chasing Yayan around the playplace.

MERALCO CHEERDANCE COMPETITION 2011

CRS THUNDERS (March 17, 2011)

OYEEEEEEEN!!

MY SILVER BIRTHDAY

At our humble home (March 20)

The best birthay everrrrrr!! :)

HAPPY 5th MONTHSARY TO US!!

Dad's Buffet, West Ave (March 21)

Oh happy day... ♫♪♫

THE 2ND MVP CUP

Meralco Fitness Center (March25-27)

One beat... GO MERALCO!!

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Wooooaaaah, whattamonth! Loads of activities and responsibilities! Nevertheless, I'm so happy with how this month went. I had the best birthday ever and celebrated it with the people that I lalalalaloooooooove!!

Some of my Untold Adventures (February 2011)

I've only written few entries for this month because I was so busy. So here's some of the things that I haven't shared in here.

YAYAN'S DAY OUT

Manila Zoo (February 6)

Our little rockstar on his little adventure.

A PRE-VALENTINE WEEKEND

Subic (February 12 an 13)

Love overload! *love*

OUR FIRST VALENTINE'S DAY

Recipes, Trinoma (February 14)

Lucky me, I have you. The best Ogre in town. *love*

2nd MUSICAL PYROLYMPICS - China vs. France

MOA (February 26)

Cause baby you're a firework *love*

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It was a February to remember. Definitely.

Some of my Untold Adventures (January 2011)

Here are some of my untold adventures or activities last January that I wasn't able to share here because of either laziness or busy-ness! Lol.

GOODBYE 2010, HELLO 2011!

STEPHEN PIA's Birthday Celebration

with the Birthday celebrator :D

the TOS that I love. I miss these guys.

JAYSEAN'S BAPTISM

TOS's first baby. Another addition to my list of godsons/daughters.

He's an angel without wings.

The pretty ninangs! *clears throat*

The crazy ninongs. Ow em nyi. Poor baby!!

DOUBLE CELEBRATION

3rd Monthsary & Mitch's (Late) Birthday Celebration

Lalalala-loooooove <3

The whole gang =)

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January was a blast. I started the year right and everything's A-ok! :)

Somebody in love with someone.

Somewhere along the road, you'll meet someone who will change your life. A person who will not change you but instead, will bring out a part of you that you never knew existed. And you'll love and hate the person that you are when you're with him - so patient, always understanding, always giving, never doubting, just loving. It's always his feelings before yours. Always him before you. Always. He has that great power over you all because you love him. And when you finally realize how much you have abused yourself, "Too Much Love Will Kill You" will play on the radio for the added coincidental drama. But you just laugh it off. C'mon, you love the person and if that's the case then you're ready to die anytime; afterwhich, you will still feel like you're on Cloud 9... Because this is what he do to you. He drives you crazy. He makes you fall endlessly.

He will hurt you in many different ways but will always stay loyal, faithful, and in love with you. He will upset you today then make you happy tomorrow; Disappoints you on the day after and will make you laugh the next day. He will give you a dose of frustrations at its most bitter taste every now and then but you'll still love him anyway. No matter what he do or how he disappoints you, you never see any reason to give up loving him.

He doesn't seem to know how much you love him no matter what you do or no matter what kind of surprise you come up with. That's just the way it is. That's just not possible because your words and actions combined will still not suffice the way you feel about this person.

You always want to see this person and be with him. But as much as you want to see him everyday, instances will not allow it and later on you realize that is a good thing. It somehow gives you time for yourself, or time with other things and other people. It provides you room to miss each other. You get to feel that strong urge of wanting and needing to see him... to be with him... with silent hopes that he feels the same. With him, there's always something to look forward to. You'll never know what to expect.

He is that someone you always think of in anything and everything you do. He makes the good things all the more joyful and makes the bad things easy to bear. He is that someone you want to talk to after a long day at work because just hearing his voice is enough to keep you energized. He is the first person you think of when something good comes up. And when you see an upcoming movie that interests you, you'd want to see it with him. When you feel the need or just simply want to go somewhere, he's the first person you want to travel with. Needless to say, you just want this person to be a part of everything you do.

When asked to spell love, you would spell out his name because to simply put it, he is your everything. He is your love. He is your pain. He is your happiness. He is your frustration. Every good thing about you is him. You love him and you just keep on falling and you will never hit the ground.

MARCHing out.

I planned to end March by summing up the craziness of this month in a single entry that's why I haven't been writing the past weeks. The original plan was to tell the story of this month down to its littlest details but as usual, laziness got the best of me. If I have time and if I am in the mood, prolly, I'll rewrite this entry with details and substance to it. But for now, I'll just go to bed. Goodnight!

Love, Technology, and Everything in Between

Okay, I am surprised by two things. One, that Ashton can write this good. Two, what he wrote actually made sense. Well, I am an instant fan.

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I was shooting a scene in my new film, No Strings Attached, in which I say to Natalie Portman,

“If you miss me, you can’t text, you can’t email, you can’t post it on my Facebook wall. If you really miss me, you come and see me.”

I began to think of all of the billions of intimate exchanges sent daily via fingers and screens, bouncing between satellites and servers. With all this texting, emailing, and social networking, I started wondering, are we all becoming so in touch with one another that we are in danger of losing touch?

It used to be that boy met girl and they exchanged phone numbers. Anticipation built. They imagined the entire relationship before a call ever happened. The phone rang. Hearts pounded. “Hello?” Followed by a conversation that lasted two hours but felt like two minutes and would be examined with friends for two weeks. If all went well, a date was arranged. That was then.

Now we exchange numbers but text instead of calling because it mitigates the risks of early failure and eliminates those deafening moments of silence. Now anticipation builds. Bdoop. “It was NICE meeting u.” Both sides overanalyze every word. We talk to a friend, an impromptu Cyrano: “He wrote nice in all caps. What does that mean? What do I write back?” Then we write a response and delete it 10 times before sending a message that will appear 2 care, but not 2 much. If all goes well, a date will be arranged.

Whether you like it or not, the digital age has produced a new format for modern romance, and natural selection may be favoring the quick-thumbed quip peddler over the confident, ice-breaking alpha male. Or maybe we are hiding behind the cloak of digital text and spell-check to present superior versions of ourselves while using these less intimate forms of communication to accelerate the courting process. So what’s it really good for?

There is some argument about who actually invented text messaging, but I think it’s safe to say it was a man. Multiple studies have shown that the average man uses about half as many words per day as women, thus text messaging. It eliminates hellos and goodbyes and cuts right to the chase. Now, if that’s not male behavior, I don’t know what is. It’s also great for passing notes. there is something fun about sharing secrets with your date while in the company of others. Think of texting as a modern whisper in your lover’s ear.

Sending sweet nothings on Twitter or Facebook is also fun. In some ways, it’s no different than sending flowers to the office: You are declaring your love for everyone to see. Who doesn’t like to be publicly adored. Just remember that what you post is out there and there’s some stuff you can’t un-see.

But the reality is that we communicate with every part of our being, and there are times when we must use it all. When someone needs us, he or she needs all of us. There’s no text that can replace a loving touch when someone we love is hurting.

We haven’t lost romance in the digital age, but we may be neglecting it. In doing so, antiquated art forms are taking on new importance. The power of a hand-written letter is greater than ever. It’s personal and deliberate means more than an email or text ever will. It has a unique scent. It requires deciphering. But, most important, it’s flawed. There are errors in handwriting, punctuation, grammar, and spelling that show our vulnerability. And vulnerability is the essence of romance. It’s the art of being uncalculated, the willingness to look foolish, the courage to say, “This is me, and I’m interested in you enough to show you my flaws with the hope that you may embrace me for all that I am but, more importantly, all that I am not.”

- Ashton Kutcher

A Walk To Remember

This is Love.

Landon: I might kiss you.

Jamie: I might be bad at it.

Landon: That's not possible.

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I miss this movie. I love the story. But I love the novel more.

Nicholas Sparks is a genius in love.

null. nadah. empty.

Let the title speak for this entry. This day was a total bore. Energy just picked up around 4 o'clock when I received a call from someone inviting me to go to the auditions for the cheerdance team of Meralco for the 2nd MVP Cup this coming March. That was pretty much the highlight of my day. I was swamped with work again but at least I have something to do while killing time at the office. hehe. I was home early and so were my parents. I gave Yayan a back massage after dinner and he loved it. He even asked for more. He is really adorable in so many ways! :)

Fast forward to tomorrow, puh-lease?!

Boys Talk

Had a great serious talk with Stephen awhile ago. Was able to tell him almost everything that's been going on my mind lately and sobrang I feel a lot better now. Thanks to him for being all ears on me. Sabagay, malaki kasi tenga, haha! Kidding aside, I am super thankful I have friends like Stephen and the rest of my Meralco barkada. Love you, TOS!

Sleep, c'mon now. Let's go.

117.

It's Mitch's birthday today. Naka-birthday leave sha but since wala naman kami napagusapan na plan to celebrate together, hindi kami nagkita. I sent him a huge birthday card via LBC. Na-receive nya nung umaga. Natuwa naman sha at na-suprise, sabi nya. So Yey for that! :)


I was kinda upset that I didn't see him today, lalo na at may special occasion. But family should always come first, of course. So naiintindihan ko naman. May sort of panghihinayang lang, you know.


Change topic.

I was swamped with work in the office today. Tambak yung due ko for feedback letters, homaygad talaga. I even had to work during my lunch break just to make sure I'll finsih everything before five o'clock dahil hindi na kami allowed na mag-overtime, which sucks a lot! pffft.


Oh life! Kelan kaya ako matututo? Stubborn me. Parang may dyslexia lang ako when it comes to life. Hate it!

Lonesome.

I was alone at Trinoma earlier. Haven't done that for awhile. I don't k now why but I felt lonely when I shouldn't really be. It was like everyone knows someone there and me? I was a total stranger.

Loneliness, leave me alone. Huh?

ONE day.

Wala naman talaga akong balak mag-blog dahil sobrang busy ko ngayon. Ayoko lang talagang palagpasin yung date ngayon. Harhar!

*BACK TO WORK*

2011. So far, you're so good.

This year has been so good t o me, so far. Parang gusto ko na ata maniwala sa mga psychic who said that Pisceans are lucky this year. 2011 is just 9-days old, though so it's technically still too early to say that I'll be lucky this year. Oh well, I'm just living this year one day at a time. If there's one thing I've learned from last year, it's to avoid over-thinking things and planning too much because I just end up feeling either disappointed or stressed out. Actually, most of the time, I feel both.

So how's my year so far... Lemme see.

• Mitch finally met my folks. He's too shy, though.
• I was booked for Palawan. The trip is on March.
• Planned a perfect Valentine getaway with three other couples :)
• General meeting with Musiqality. MAI as the new leader. Go Kekemonski!
• Stephen's birthday celebration.

Marami na ata agad nangyari sa nine (9) days, ha? :D More on the coming days, please. Lord, let this be my year.

Yesterday is Love.

• Mitch and I met at Trinoma.

• We drove off to Il Terrazo at Tomas Morato.

• We ate (A LOT) at Carlo's Pizza.

• We had a funny "Gamit mo, linis mo... Pagkain mo, luto mo." coversation.

• Drove off to my lola's sister's wake at La Funeraria Paz, La Loma.

• He met almost everyone.

P.S. 2011, so far, you're so good! ♥

Spell cool? "T-O-D-A-Y-!"

Today was awesome. Planned a Valentine weekend with my Meralco "couple" friends (Rhoss and John, Leri and Francel, Kat and Anjo, and of course, Mitch and I) at Subic. Booked a round trip flight to Palawan with Musiqality scheduled on March. Can this day get any cooler? I don't think so. Fast forward to February 12 please!! Then to March 5!! :)

Lord, thank you for this day! :)

Good Vibes.

Purple and Orange are the lucky colors for this year. Do I still need to explain why my page looks like this besides the fact that it looks really cute and childlike? :D Well, let's just say that I'm really hopeful for this year. I really am. Lord, please help me make this year the best that it can be for me.

New year. New page design. New goals. New life.
EVERYTHING NEW.

blah. blah. blah.

I want to study again. I want to learn how to drive and buy my own car. I want to go out-of-town. I want to lose weight. I want to dance again. I want to visit my brother in Canada. I want to believe these things will happen for me.

Okay. Enough.

2011 Buddy!

I am equipped. Like I said in my Facebook status, I am so ready for 2011. And this... this journal will be my buddy for this year. I know and I feel that this year will rock! Bring it on, 2011! :)

2010 was a great year. 2011, may you be better!